"But I met him and fell in hard, and that freaked me out. I could feel myself falling in love, so I started seeing things where there wasn't anything to see. I began to focus on the supposed lack of communication: if he didn't reply to texts within a certain timeframe or didn't tell me he was going out with his friends, I used that as an excuse to cheat on him, multiple, multiple times."
So she felt like she had to *justify* it to herself, teehee you don't communicate with me enough, that's why I cheated on you.
This is really painful to read. What a cunt.