Normal people can say stuff like "when I was 20 years old ...."

[Deleted member 7448]

I can't say stuff like that. All my years blend together. No matter if it's 13 or 25, I couldn't tell you one god damn thing I did in those years. Not one thing.

Since I was ~13 I've been depressed, rotting at home as much as possible.

Sure, my shit memory is a big factor into all this, but I literally spent my youth doing nothing. Consuming content I forget 5 minutes later. Days flying by, one like the other, not learning anything, not doing anything, not enjoying anything really. Just killing time. Fuck, I wish I at least had one fucking interest in this fucking world, just one god damn thing to pour my energy into. But for some reason my brain is so broken I enjoy nothing no matter how much I try. God damn I can already see myself doing some bullshit paperwork for hours when wageslaving, and I'll be thinking about how I should've enjoyed life while I could have, cause as a wageslave your life is mostly not yours for 90% of the time you are awake. But what else could I have done? I tried, I like nothing. Idk what the fuck is wrong with me, can't be just the depression thing, maybe I'm just a lemon altogether, though my warranty probably expired by now.

 

[imsorry]

I can already see myself doing some bullshit paperwork for hours when wageslaving

Imagine numbing yourself and living self induced hypnosis like state to finally wake up and go to wage slave lol.

 

[Gymcelled]

I can't pin point anything about my life like that. All I can say is "when I was in X year of college" and stuff like that, but not a precise year because all those years went by with no real event besides education.

I can't remember ANY of my summers tbh. Not a single one

 

[Sportbro]

Very similar feelings to mine

You ever though trying to write short stories, you are quite the avid writer.

 

[Dalaran]

I can't pin point anything about my life like that. All I can say is "when I was in X year of college" and stuff like that, but not a precise year because all those years went by with no real event besides education.

I can't remember ANY of my summers tbh. Not a single one

That's definitely a truecel trait. I spent all my summers at home while rotting in my home. Nobody ever invited me anywhere after school.

 

[Gymcelled]

That's definitely a truecel trait. I spent all my summers at home while rotting in my home. Nobody ever invited me anywhere after school.

The self improvement was just as meaningless as rotting too. There's really no making up for real, meaningful life experiences tbh

 

[Saigon Depression]

Age becomes meaningless when you're incel.
We will live the same life at the age of 15, 30, 50 and 70.

 

[Iwanttolive]

Ur threads r always so relatable

 

[Selinity]

I can't say stuff like that. All my years blend together. No matter if it's 13 or 25, I couldn't tell you one god damn thing I did in those years. Not one thing.

Since I was ~13 I've been depressed, rotting at home as much as possible.

Sure, my shit memory is a big factor into all this, but I literally spent my youth doing nothing. Consuming content I forget 5 minutes later. Days flying by, one like the other, not learning anything, not doing anything, not enjoying anything really. Just killing time. Fuck, I wish I at least had one fucking interest in this fucking world, just one god damn thing to pour my energy into. But for some reason my brain is so broken I enjoy nothing no matter how much I try. God damn I can already see myself doing some bullshit paperwork for hours when wageslaving, and I'll be thinking about how I should've enjoyed life while I could have, cause as a wageslave your life is mostly not yours for 90% of the time you are awake. But what else could I have done? I tried, I like nothing. Idk what the fuck is wrong with me, can't be just the depression thing, maybe I'm just a lemon altogether, though my warranty probably expired by now.

I truly feel for you. It really sucks to LDAR but it feels like that's the only thing I can do at this point

 

[ThisWorldIsAMess]

I can't say stuff like that. All my years blend together. No matter if it's 13 or 25, I couldn't tell you one god damn thing I did in those years. Not one thing.

Since I was ~13 I've been depressed, rotting at home as much as possible.

Sure, my shit memory is a big factor into all this, but I literally spent my youth doing nothing. Consuming content I forget 5 minutes later. Days flying by, one like the other, not learning anything, not doing anything, not enjoying anything really. Just killing time. Fuck, I wish I at least had one fucking interest in this fucking world, just one god damn thing to pour my energy into. But for some reason my brain is so broken I enjoy nothing no matter how much I try. God damn I can already see myself doing some bullshit paperwork for hours when wageslaving, and I'll be thinking about how I should've enjoyed life while I could have, cause as a wageslave your life is mostly not yours for 90% of the time you are awake. But what else could I have done? I tried, I like nothing. Idk what the fuck is wrong with me, can't be just the depression thing, maybe I'm just a lemon altogether, though my warranty probably expired by now.

I understand you. But I’m sure you have somethings to mention about your past.

I agree with pretty much everything else you said.

 

[Wastrel]

All my years blend together. No matter if it's 13 or 25

Same shit. Brutal. Sad shit.
Empty life...

 

[Ellsworth]

Not to sound blue pulled but have you ever thought about shutting off the phone, the computer and the tv and doing something like go outside everyday for like 8+ hours for several weeks or months to see if it pulls you out of your depression?

I feel sad for you because I was extremely depressed as well and I can understand many of your posts as if they were being written about me.

I don’t know what you would do outside the house, I guess try different things like go for walks, go to the park, go to free events, whatever gets you always from the sitcoms and internet.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Not to sound blue pulled but have you ever thought about shutting off the phone, the computer and the tv and doing something like go outside everyday for like 8+ hours for several weeks or months to see if it pulls you out of your depression?

I feel sad for you because I was extremely depressed as well and I can understand many of your posts as if they were being written about me.

I don’t know what you would do outside the house, I guess try different things like go for walks, go to the park, go to free events, whatever gets you always from the sitcoms and internet.

I haven't tried it. You make a good point, though as I have 0 friends (and I don't want any at this point), and also this boring city has nothing to offer, there's really nothing to do outside.

Well, when I'll be wageslaving I'll be out of the house for like 9 hours a day so I suppose that will do.

 

[incelerated]

We will live the same life at the age of 15, 30, 50 and 70.

Damn our lives are sad.

 

[Deleted member 27495]

Damn our lives are sad.

life is sad.

 

[Truecelsubhuman]

brutal. other men tell what they did , and what did i do? i couldnt even touch other people cause im creepy ugly subman OVER BRUTAL

 

[Deleted member 28708]

Can relate, empty life.

 

[Words2_live_bye]

same bro. My age 12 - 21 has all been the same basically
no major improvements or developmental milestones were reached