I've never felt so alone in my life, and it's brutal. All these years have been horrible. I simply gave up on my life. I'm surviving with suicidal thoughts, enormous anguish in my heart. The weight is enormous. Society doesn't care about us, even my family abandoned me. I'm lost. Honestly, even if I slept with a woman, it wouldn't change a damn thing. My life would still be a mess. I don't care if I sleep with someone or not. I've given up on living. I've abandoned everything. If you don't provide, even your family forgets you. I'm alone to do everything. My life is spent in my room rotting like a mentally ill and retarded person, which I am. I didn't want all this to happen. I have no one but myself. This is a harsh reality I've been living for years now. I only have peace in my heart when I'm sleeping. 
