I spent in inordinate amount of time reading, lurking, hoping I just missed something that everyone else figured out but the thing I’ve learned the most is that normies are either too close to the canvas, suffer from an abundance mentally, or just gaslighting so they can tell you to shut up in a way they feel good about.
Which sucks but it’s whatever, it largely boils down to a lack of reading and media literacy that Reddit normies in particular are notorious for. I sometimes don't blame them since there are still things I’m learning about myself. For example I wasn't sure what was wrong until my MDD and GAD diagnosis. My medication has slightly helped with my depression and helped tremendously with my anxiety, I can finally tolerate my face and other things. But there’s a massive difference between trying to figure out what’s medically wrong with you and knowing your likes and dislikes.
I don’t blame women for not wanting to be with a mentally ill very low self-esteem hikikomori chudlet moid like myself. It’s just that for many years I use to be normalish just a bit socially awkward, not domineering personality, imperfect face, imperfect body, but otherwise pleasant to hang around especially if you’re a fellow nerd dork geek. I used to even have friends, hobbies, occasionally funny.
But it takes time for me to actually develop romantical/sexual feelings and more time to express it in a way that doesn’t make me feel like a creep and try to not make her feel like I’m going to suddenly become a rapist murder moid. At least I’ve been let down very easy for all my in-person rejections which I deeply appreciate and mostly just ghosted for online stuff but still. Why does it almost always ruin the friendship? The only one that it didn't was because she wasn't interested in anything I could offer but we still stayed good friends for a few years after high school.
Most normie advice outside of just working out is unhelpful then they say “Well if that didn't help you aren’t entitled to anything”. Sure but can't they understand why I would be frustrated by unhelpful advice? And the personalized advice I received from mutual friends (all women IIRC) I now realize can only be considered sabotage to protect their friends from what they must think must be a monster. I know I was and am very far from a perfect person inside and out but geez don’t disguise it as helping me. I want to be better and lying doesn't help me actually.
The bar is not on the ground, it’s somewhere around 6 feet tall, abs, huge biceps, a good enough face. I like to think maybe I’d stand a chance if that was explicitly ingrained in society at a young age because I would’ve just had HGH and maybe been in great shape already. Less than that is barely tolerated after emascualting jestermaxing, not desired. I want to be desired.
I wish everyone was honest or there was a way to peer into someone’s soul.
I wish I didn’t care.
Which sucks but it’s whatever, it largely boils down to a lack of reading and media literacy that Reddit normies in particular are notorious for. I sometimes don't blame them since there are still things I’m learning about myself. For example I wasn't sure what was wrong until my MDD and GAD diagnosis. My medication has slightly helped with my depression and helped tremendously with my anxiety, I can finally tolerate my face and other things. But there’s a massive difference between trying to figure out what’s medically wrong with you and knowing your likes and dislikes.
I don’t blame women for not wanting to be with a mentally ill very low self-esteem hikikomori chudlet moid like myself. It’s just that for many years I use to be normalish just a bit socially awkward, not domineering personality, imperfect face, imperfect body, but otherwise pleasant to hang around especially if you’re a fellow nerd dork geek. I used to even have friends, hobbies, occasionally funny.
But it takes time for me to actually develop romantical/sexual feelings and more time to express it in a way that doesn’t make me feel like a creep and try to not make her feel like I’m going to suddenly become a rapist murder moid. At least I’ve been let down very easy for all my in-person rejections which I deeply appreciate and mostly just ghosted for online stuff but still. Why does it almost always ruin the friendship? The only one that it didn't was because she wasn't interested in anything I could offer but we still stayed good friends for a few years after high school.
Most normie advice outside of just working out is unhelpful then they say “Well if that didn't help you aren’t entitled to anything”. Sure but can't they understand why I would be frustrated by unhelpful advice? And the personalized advice I received from mutual friends (all women IIRC) I now realize can only be considered sabotage to protect their friends from what they must think must be a monster. I know I was and am very far from a perfect person inside and out but geez don’t disguise it as helping me. I want to be better and lying doesn't help me actually.
The bar is not on the ground, it’s somewhere around 6 feet tall, abs, huge biceps, a good enough face. I like to think maybe I’d stand a chance if that was explicitly ingrained in society at a young age because I would’ve just had HGH and maybe been in great shape already. Less than that is barely tolerated after emascualting jestermaxing, not desired. I want to be desired.
I wish everyone was honest or there was a way to peer into someone’s soul.
I wish I didn’t care.
