Alone75
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I've been feeling more fed up lately carrying like this, it's worse this time of year with it getting dark earlier too. It's like the night goes on forever, I'm just doing the same shit trying to cope, alone and staring at a screen. No friends, except 2 incels left that I met on other forums years ago that I text chat with on skype sometimes.
I feel so angry and bored, feel on edge all the time and it's hard to sleep. I'll never get a steady job again, it'll never be anything I'm happy doing, I'll never get into a relationship or have a love life unless I pay for company for an hour [which has never appealed to me - it won't end being incel by suddenly paying for sex].
I feel there is no way out at all, how many more years like this? Until I die of old age in a few decades [if I last that long] be grateful for each new day some people say, lol how the hell can I? It's all a sick joke, existing like this! Life just gets worse, more depressing, more lonely, my energy levels get lower. At this age I can only look and feel worse as time goes by, There is no way out.
I feel so angry and bored, feel on edge all the time and it's hard to sleep. I'll never get a steady job again, it'll never be anything I'm happy doing, I'll never get into a relationship or have a love life unless I pay for company for an hour [which has never appealed to me - it won't end being incel by suddenly paying for sex].
I feel there is no way out at all, how many more years like this? Until I die of old age in a few decades [if I last that long] be grateful for each new day some people say, lol how the hell can I? It's all a sick joke, existing like this! Life just gets worse, more depressing, more lonely, my energy levels get lower. At this age I can only look and feel worse as time goes by, There is no way out.