Men my age should have had a wife and kids by now. But my life is littered with bad memories of those I trusted the most betraying me. My strongest memories that I think of everyday are of hatred against me. Women hate me, as if is their only mission in life. Some really do owe me an apology, though they will never be compelled to. They smugly throw mud at me while others cheer their actions. These same women would have killed themselves in my shoes.
Other contacts I made clearly don't recognize or take my work seriously. It apparently wasn't worth very much to them. I'm working for free, basically, while giving them a major benefit (insurance adjustor)
I think it's time I step back from everything. My effort, the walls I broke down, the things I survived, was clearly never worth it. Meanwhile, other men are given things for free.
A truth about all of us, in case I don't post again (and for the benefit of the curious): It was never about sex. Not really, or at least entirely. Men have sexually active lives all the time, and still end up in this mindset. We are the unappreciated, the rejected, the lonely, the bullied, the forgotten.
I really did try, and I really did pour everything into the efforts I had.
Other contacts I made clearly don't recognize or take my work seriously. It apparently wasn't worth very much to them. I'm working for free, basically, while giving them a major benefit (insurance adjustor)
I think it's time I step back from everything. My effort, the walls I broke down, the things I survived, was clearly never worth it. Meanwhile, other men are given things for free.
A truth about all of us, in case I don't post again (and for the benefit of the curious): It was never about sex. Not really, or at least entirely. Men have sexually active lives all the time, and still end up in this mindset. We are the unappreciated, the rejected, the lonely, the bullied, the forgotten.
I really did try, and I really did pour everything into the efforts I had.
