Venting My mental health ruined after i lost my virginity to a escort

[AutisticMonstrosity]

I just wanted to quickly cum and end the session.I went to back to doggy style and in about 10 minutes i was about to cum and i pulled out immediately and sprayed my cum all over her bed

you tried to cum asap, but it still took 10 mins?

 

[mknova]

nigga what

nigga what what

 

[Dravidiancel]

you tried to cum asap, but it still took 10 mins?

Yeah I think I ruined my penis sensation with death grip masturbation,i couldn't cum faster even after no fapping for an entire month

 

[Dravidiancel]

Fuck now I'm now hard again thinking about her.She's not even receiving my messages.I think imma delete this thread

 

[Dravidiancel]

Fuckkkk how do I forget her now.I feel like I have pair bonded with this whore.I just want to fuck her one more time but she has left the city and became inactive right just A few days after she took my virginity .I hope she comes back

Brutal emotional attachment pill. We are designed to be with the person we have sex with as a virgin (unless you are dark triad). This is why I’ll probably just be a virgin my whole life.


@tehgymcel420 thoughts?

 

[tehgymcel420]

Brutal emotional attachment pill. We are designed to be with the person we have sex with as a virgin (unless you are dark triad). This is why I’ll probably just be a virgin my whole life.


@tehgymcel420 thoughts?

Who is the Turkish retard?

 

[Pringleton]

My last post was about being scammed by a escort because I paid a advance and booked an outcall.So I took all the advice from the escortcels and went for incall this time.It was pretty hard to find to find her address but it was worth it.She opened the door as i walked up the stairs and there she was wearing a woolen white tank top and I entered quickly into her room cause i didn't want anyone to see me.She was Asian and chubby but fit with 7/10 face with medium bust and medium ass.In her page her age was mentioned as 22 but her real age was 27 so she and I sat on the sofa and started chatting for some time and she asked if I liked older girls and I said no that she looked very young in her photos.I paid her the money for 2 sessions.




She asked me if I wanted to smoke and I said no and she asked me whether she could smoke a cigarette and then after she finished it,we went to the bed.Her room was decorated with candles and flowers and it set up the mood very nicely.I started removing my shirt and told her it was my first time but she started laughing saying that she doesn't believe me.I was so horny at this time and she removed her tank top and her black bra and panties,her breasts were beautiful and i started kissing her.It felt amazing to kiss her her soft pink thick lips.i started the foreplay kissing her on the breast sucking her nipples and her stomach and slowly came down to her pink pussy and gave her oral.I know it's bad to give oral to escort but she started this job only recently and I wanted to taste her beautiful pink pusssy and as i gave licking her clitoris she was squirming with joy and I liked it very much that she was enjoying it.Her roast beef smelled and tasted good nothing like the fish taste that a Turkish retard would keep posting in this forum.she gave me a blowjob and licked my balls without condom and it felt great.





She was asking for intercourse so I took my 5 inch cock and started slamming her pussy missionary style and she was acting like she was enjoying it, but I knew no women could enjoy a 5 inch cock.I wasn't enjoying it because I was wearing a condom and I couldn't feel I shit.It was so annoying.Then i went to doggystyle but I still couldn't feel anything because of the condom.After 20 minutes i came in the condom after trying so hard to cum.That right there was the end of the first session.





Then we took a smoke break and she showed me her Instagram and chatted for some time(it was a gf experience).This time we were sitting on the sofa and i removed the towel and she started bouncing on my cock and I grabbed her thick ass and sucking on her right breast nipple and kissing her pink lips at the same time.The feeling of me squeezing her ass felt better than sex with all the blood rushing through my veins.I took her to bed and started to thrust her from the back and she was yelling 'deeper and go deeper baby ' but my penis was already deep inside her and it kinda felt awful because i wished i had a bigger penis so she would scream in pain and I could go in deeper but i knew she was faking the pleasure.She knew i wasn't enjoying the sex with condom so she suddenly removed the condom and i was worried if i would get any std but i didn't give a fk and i just wanted to feel her tight pussy.I started thrusting her from the side and this time i can actually feel my cock inside her pussy.It felt so much better to have sex without a condom but this entire process felt like too much work as i was suffering from mild asthma and i couldn't control my breath properly.I just wanted to quickly cum and end the session.I went to back to doggy style and in about 10 minutes i was about to cum and i pulled out immediately and sprayed my cum all over her bed and she told me I needed more practice and I felt bad that i couldnt satisfy her but who cares ,she's just a whore.There was a lot of cum as I didn't fap for an entire month.She told me my penis size was the perfect size for her and i called her a liar.Then i dressed up and left her place after wishing her goodbye.For the next two hours i felt like a superman flying in the sky with adrenaline pumping through my veins.I was almost in a trance state.Felt like i had achieved something in life.



I went to my room and immediately that night I started missing her smell and the feeling of me being inside her.I still have dreams about her often and it's been 3 weeks since I met her.I know she is a whore and it feels like there is some part of me missing.I fell in into the dark hole and started feeling depressed.



I just hit the gym last week to not be a skinny framlet, so at least an escort would respect me, but I know that no good foid would love my face and my 5'7 height, but lifting weights feels like a really good cope and I can channel all my sexual energy into getting stronger. I will rate my escort experience a 6/10. I wouldn't waste my money again even though I miss her.It didn't feel much better than masturbation but the feeling of licking her pussy and sucking on her nipples while I grabbed her ass was the part i liked the most.I would rather play video games and gymmaxx as I know I can never pleasure a foid while she loves me.

redpill mogging incoming

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

Who is the Turkish retard?

Idk, but it reminded me of you lol. Since you are the fesikh expert.

 

[tehgymcel420]

Idk, but it reminded me of you lol. Since you are the fesikh expert.

He's lying, it smells like fesikh.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

He's lying, it smells like fesikh.

 

[Aquiline]

Feels like maybe depressive people shouldn't be exposed to demoralizing information, they can't process it rationally.

Can attest to this.

 

[Aquiline]

Thats why I wait sexbots, better then masturbation

You will wait 50 years.

 

[Lifeisbullshit95]

.It didn't feel much better than masturbation

I always preach masturbation is better than sex. When you have sex you have to have stamina and you have to do a lot of effort to achive orgasm.

Masturbation and blow job are better than sex. Sex is for making babies.

 

[ezio6]

Dnr but based bhai

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

Yeah I think I ruined my penis sensation with death grip masturbation,i couldn't cum faster even after no fapping for an entire month

people here say that they cummed too quick with escort because of too much masturbation to porn and you and some others say exactly the opposite.

the truth seems that porn has no effect. you have good serotonin levels, because you could not cum quicker. i ejaculate too soon even in masturbation despite trying to delay it. i don't even bother masturbating because it ends way too soon, before i even achieve full erection. because of premature ejaculation I have not yet visited any prostitutes ever and am still virgin. other reason is the high price and that also relates to the premature ejaculation because i would ejaculate immediately and lose interest and not even use my whole bought time. or if i take too little time, i may run out of time before ejaculating, especially if i take ssri to last longer. in any case, i would not book more than 30 mins, 1 hour pricing here is very bad compared to german, austrian, dutch pricing. e.g. in Austria 1 hour is much less than double the price of 30 minutes. austria has 1 hour for 100 or 120 euros, finland has 250 or 300 euros and some foreigners 220 or 200 euros one hour absolute lowest price. 30 minutes can be had with 100 euros in finland with foreign escorts, that is the price floor. (15 minutes is 80 euros if offered)

 

[jeetcel]

@Dravidiancel no worries my fellow pajeetbro, i'm happy about your escortmaxxing, crack a cigarette and enjoy, your mental block will get over once you let it all go
something's better than nothing

 

[NazarOps]

Fuckkkk how do I forget her now.I feel like I have pair bonded with this whore.I just want to fuck her one more time but she has left the city and became inactive right just A few days after she took my virginity .I hope she comes back

Brutal. Even the escorts live rent free in your head. Idk how chads can pump & dump stacies without developing a deep connection with women.

 

[NazarOps]

people here say that they cummed too quick with escort because of too much masturbation to porn and you and some others say exactly the opposite.

the truth seems that porn has no effect. you have good serotonin levels, because you could not cum quicker. i ejaculate too soon even in masturbation despite trying to delay it. i don't even bother masturbating because it ends way too soon, before i even achieve full erection. because of premature ejaculation I have not yet visited any prostitutes ever and am still virgin. other reason is the high price and that also relates to the premature ejaculation because i would ejaculate immediately and lose interest and not even use my whole bought time. or if i take too little time, i may run out of time before ejaculating, especially if i take ssri to last longer. in any case, i would not book more than 30 mins, 1 hour pricing here is very bad compared to german, austrian, dutch pricing. e.g. in Austria 1 hour is much less than double the price of 30 minutes. austria has 1 hour for 100 or 120 euros, finland has 250 or 300 euros and some foreigners 220 or 200 euros one hour absolute lowest price. 30 minutes can be had with 100 euros in finland with foreign escorts, that is the price floor. (15 minutes is 80 euros if offered)

Is PE caused by bad serotonin levels?

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

Is PE caused by bad serotonin levels?

yes. PE can be fixed with SSRI, MDMA, etc. even hard exercise (and sunlight) boosts serotonin. but I am never horny after hard exercise

 

[NazarOps]

yes. PE can be fixed with SSRI, MDMA, etc. even hard exercise (and sunlight) boosts serotonin. but I am never horny after hard exercise

Idk, I think it's mostly porn induced. If I fap without porn I last longer. I think some people just get arroused easily or they are virgins with not a lot of sex experience.

 

[Dravidiancel]

I always preach masturbation is better than sex. When you have sex you have to have stamina and you have to do a lot of effort to achive orgasm.

Masturbation and blow job are better than sex. Sex is for making babies.

Based.My heart was about to pop out by the time the session ended because she wanted me to do everything.i would rather let her suck my cock for the entire time and let her do all the job.I had more fun licking her pussy than fucking her.

 

[Dravidiancel]

Brutal. Even the escorts live rent free in your head. Idk how chads can pump & dump stacies without developing a deep connection with women.

Chad has a social life,has hobbies multiple whores than can distract his mind and give him true attention.I hit the gym and rot in the room all the day browsing incel subs without sunlight.Ofcourse I'm gonna be thinking about the slut who popped my cherry.

 

[Dravidiancel]

people here say that they cummed too quick with escort because of too much masturbation to porn and you and some others say exactly the opposite.

the truth seems that porn has no effect. you have good serotonin levels, because you could not cum quicker. i ejaculate too soon even in masturbation despite trying to delay it. i don't even bother masturbating because it ends way too soon, before i even achieve full erection. because of premature ejaculation I have not yet visited any prostitutes ever and am still virgin. other reason is the high price and that also relates to the premature ejaculation because i would ejaculate immediately and lose interest and not even use my whole bought time. or if i take too little time, i may run out of time before ejaculating, especially if i take ssri to last longer. in any case, i would not book more than 30 mins, 1 hour pricing here is very bad compared to german, austrian, dutch pricing. e.g. in Austria 1 hour is much less than double the price of 30 minutes. austria has 1 hour for 100 or 120 euros, finland has 250 or 300 euros and some foreigners 220 or 200 euros one hour absolute lowest price. 30 minutes can be had with 100 euros in finland with foreign escorts, that is the price floor. (15 minutes is 80 euros if offered)

I cannot agree with your theory because i have to experiment more with many different whores.I am also a porn addict.Due to no fap and not watching porn,my confidence level was through the roof and that can also be the reason why my serotonin level was high .I am always anxious when I talk to women.But this time i did not feel anxious even though I had not talked to woman for almost 2 years.If I didn't nofap I would have never visited her and would still be virgin.another reason why i couldn't cum faster was because she was 5 years older than me and thicker than me so I couldn't dominate her at all.i look like skinny framelet even though I weigh 154 at 5'7.I only visited her because it was written that she was 22 in profile but it was probably written by her agent and I couldn't find any skinny girls my age.But she was beautiful and had a fantastic body.I don't regret it one bit and I can only thank nofap for that.

 

[Dravidiancel]

And yeah I am not visiting any more whores until I bulk the fk up so I can choke them with my biceps and pull their fking hair and turn her ass pink with all the slapping.Its gonna take a long time probably years for that but I'll be patient.Women are made to be dominated.I feel like a cuck with my stick arms and small shoulders.I feel like my cardio is much better now and also somewhat better upper body strength with better hip movement but I don't want to meet her again until i bulk up atleast to 162 pounds because i don't want to disappoint her as she told I needed more practice.She probably likes rough stuff but I was all slow and sweet being a gentleman.Not anymore.

 

[w1818alone]

Escort I'd money you loose your virginity to money

 

[Dravidiancel]

I wanna become like Gerard butler in den of thieves and fuck her in the ass next time and this time she'll scream for real and won't think about me needing more practice

 

[Dravidiancel]

Escort I'd money you loose your virginity to money

If i didn't pull my dick out at the right time she would probably be pregnant rn.So that is bullshit.I could have dumped all my gallon of load that was stored in my balls into her tight pussy but I didn't.I care about my future.

 

[Dravidiancel]

Ahh shit this whore just came back to the city.i must resist the temptations.This is the work of the devil.I just want to be a coping incel

 

[Dravidiancel]

@NazarOps should I meet her again,I feel like I have developed oneitis.Fuck me,I should have never lost my virginity.Should have waited for marriage

 

[Dravidiancel]

I will make a sextape of me fking her and post it her.Only my favourite inkwell bro's will see it

 

[NazarOps]

@NazarOps should I meet her again,I feel like I have developed oneitis.Fuck me,I should have never lost my virginity.Should have waited for marriage

Damn bro, idk it's up to you.

 

[diedlonely]

Ngl, I was at half mast reading about your experience. I should probably abstain from reading escortcelling threads to be honest.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

I cannot agree with your theory because i have to experiment more with many different whores.I am also a porn addict.Due to no fap and not watching porn,my confidence level was through the roof and that can also be the reason why my serotonin level was high .I am always anxious when I talk to women.But this time i did not feel anxious even though I had not talked to woman for almost 2 years.If I didn't nofap I would have never visited her and would still be virgin.another reason why i couldn't cum faster was because she was 5 years older than me and thicker than me so I couldn't dominate her at all.i look like skinny framelet even though I weigh 154 at 5'7.I only visited her because it was written that she was 22 in profile but it was probably written by her agent and I couldn't find any skinny girls my age.But she was beautiful and had a fantastic body.I don't regret it one bit and I can only thank nofap for that.

clearly you have no PE like me. only thing that helps me is SSRI medication.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

I will make a sextape of me fking her and post it her.Only my favourite inkwell bro's will see it

post it in the bunker

 

[Dravidiancel]

Ngl, I was at half mast reading about your experience. I should probably abstain from reading escortcelling threads to be honest.

I was bricked up every time i read about a escortcel experience.I tried visiting one last year but didn't have the courage.Tried booking one outcall 4 months ago but got cockblocked by the hotel management and the whore also scammed me.Finally gathered every single ounce of my confidence and went incall and this beautiful woman just took my virginity for a price that didn't dent my pocket too much

 

[NazarOps]

I was bricked up every time i read about a escortcel experience.I tried visiting one last year but didn't have the courage.Tried booking one outcall 4 months ago but got cockblocked by the hotel management and the whore also scammed me.Finally gathered every single ounce of my confidence and went incall and this beautiful woman just took my virginity for a price that didn't dent my pocket too much

Hey bro, it's been a day since I had my first escort session and I think I'm having the same experience as you. I can't stop thinking about sex & wanting to fuck, brutal .

I promised myself I would hold out until next week when I get paid but the cravings are destroying me, Idk if I will be able to survive until next week


Fucking brutal, maybe I shouldn't have done this. It's like an addiction.

 

[Dravidiancel]

Hey bro, it's been a day since I had my first escort session and I think I'm having the same experience as you. I can't stop thinking about sex & wanting to fuck, brutal .

I promised myself I would hold out until next week when I get paid but the cravings are destroying me, Idk if I will be able to survive until next week


Fucking brutal, maybe I shouldn't have done this. It's like an addiction.

i feel your pain man.I am just hitting gym everyday for an hour.During every extra rep I do I think about her luscious body and her beautiful vagina.She just replied to my message after almost a month.It hurts to know that she's being fked my different guys everyday while i'm thinking about her.

I'm also saving up money for her.But before that I have make my body stronger so I can fk her really hard.

 

[NazarOps]

i feel your pain man.I am just hitting gym everyday for an hour.During every extra rep I do I think about her luscious body and her beautiful vagina.She just replied to my message after almost a month.It hurts to know that she's being fked my different guys everyday while i'm thinking about her.

I'm also saving up money for her.But before that I have make my body stronger so I can fk her really hard.

Hey man, I was thinking about something. Next time when I will visit the escort, is it a good idea to tell her that you are developing feelings for her? I know that she probably won't care but I just want to let her know that I like her company .

Man why does life have to be so brutal.

 

[Dravidiancel]

Hey man, I was thinking about something. Next time when I will visit the escort, is it a good idea to tell her that you are developing feelings for her? I know that she probably won't care but I just want to let her know that I like her company .

Man why does life have to be so brutal.

Nah man don't do that.Like I said they don't give a fk about us and will probably spit on us if we try to touch them without paying.i will probably meet mine just one more time and switch to other escorts after that.Its very hard to separate sex and romantic feelings but we gotta try or else we will lose our minds and ability to cope with other stuff.

Everytime you feel bad just think about the all the men who came inside her and said the same words that we uttered to her(that she's pretty and beautiful).She's nothing but a whore and a cum dumpster.There's nothing real about them.

 

[NazarOps]

Nah man don't do that.Like I said they don't give a fk about us and will probably spit on us if we try to touch them without paying.i will probably meet mine just one more time and switch to other escorts after that.Its very hard to separate sex and romantic feelings but we gotta try or else we will lose our minds and ability to cope with other stuff.

Ye true. I might try to socialize with her a bit though.

 

[NazarOps]

Good story. I wish I could see an escort but I live in shitmerica.

So is sex as good as people say?

America has escorts, wdym.

 

[NazarOps]

I'm so fucking angry right now I can't take it, this week needs to hurry up already so that I can go again on Saturday.

I'm so angry that I reached new PRs in the gym. Fuck this shit

 

[Linesnap99]

suifuel

 

[telamon]

Dick mogs me

 

[NazarOps]

@Davidiancel I couldn't hold it. I messaged her just now asking if we can meet again this Saturday. If she ghosts me I'm going to breakdown

 

[NazarOps]

@Dravidiancel *

 

[Dravidiancel]

@Davidiancel I couldn't hold it. I messaged her just now asking if we can meet again this Saturday. If she ghosts me I'm going to breakdown

So much withdrawal from just oral sex.Once you go inside her and feel her pussy,you will pair bond with her and you won't be able to forget her for a long time.

 

[NazarOps]

So much withdrawal from just oral sex.Once you go inside her and feel her pussy,you will pair bond with her and you won't be able to forget her for a long time.

It's not just that. She was nice to me and made me feel special, that's what's fucking with my mind even though it's part of escorts' business to make their clients feel special.

 

[Dravidiancel]

It's not just that. She was nice to me and made me feel special, that's what's fucking with my mind even though it's part of escorts' business to make their clients feel special.

Yeah my blowjob was special too.Her eyes were sparkling as she was deepthroating my cock and I was running my fingers through her smooth hair.Best feeling ever.She used to smile at me very cutely every time she kissed me.Probably the only woman who will ever treat me this good.

 

[Dravidiancel]

It's not just that. She was nice to me and made me feel special, that's what's fucking with my mind even though it's part of escorts' business to make their clients feel special.

She was so fking wet from the oral sex I gave her i'm gonna meet her at the end of month.wondering if i should meet her for 1 or 2 sessions because last time I could only fk her for an hour even though I paid for two