Psychocel
Defunctcel
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I hadn't/haven't slept for almost 36 hours. But didn't wanted to ditch class as I already had absences, so I drank 3 red bulls during the morning and noon. And holy shit, I was so deep into tiredness that red bull only kept my body connected to my brain and that's it. My brain was/is only functioning with the sole purpose of keeping me awake and breathing. The social anxiety that often torments me dissapeared, I couldn't think about anything other than staying autopilot. I wouldn't even have cared if I had been stripped naked right there. I felt like I had ascended to someone beyond Chad inhibition, where nothing could get my feels. We as incels are introverted which means we sympathize with others more than hypocritical normie scum and tend to have awkward mannerisms that normalfags look down upon, yet I dgaf for a single normie, roastie or chad life today or any shit people thought about my mannerism/personality. Still no regrets. Unlike alcohol that gives a boost of fake confidence, this felt like my inner/true persona took command of my brain and body. Normally I would do the normie thing to do and wait for people wasting my time, hold doors for normies, fake smile, agree with the sheeps, and other normie shit. This time the mentalcel took the wheel. Normies caught up to this and I can't even imagine if they thought I was going ER. Kek If only one could evoke this state at will there wouldn't be mentalcels. I didn't had to put the social mask today and gave everyone a piece of my true mind.
And for that it was a good day worth living.