Every day I feel my heart sink down into pure dispair and I have a fuck of a headache that won't go away. I feel like I'm drowning in hot dog shit that scorches away my skin. Every day is a lost day, I have failed at everything that I've tried to better myself. It's either that I kill myself or I kill someone else and transfer my pain onto them. I try not to sob or break down too often but I had it figured that I am destined to be sad, there's no fixing for me. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't move, I can't think and I can't view without my eyes turning blurry. I am simply putting in words what I have already decided.
