Rot&Repeat
Always Tired
★★★★★
- Joined
- Apr 14, 2021
- Posts
- 418
To start off, they were just like me. Ethnic, below average, no gf, into shit like anime, cartoons, rock music and video games. Everything was actually great with them. We would spend all day together in high school, play cards in the library, crack jokes and maybe play basketball after school.
It all went south when we graduated high school and it meant that to see them more often i had to take like a half hour bus ride to their neighborhood(they both lived close). I think i got tired of constantly leaving the house to go to them so at some point i decided i wouldnt respond to their texts when they ask if i wanted to hang. They ofcourse kept texting but i just wouldnt respond cause my social battery just felt so drained all the time that i didnt feel like talking to another person at all. Then at some point the texts stopped. They had forgotten me and i regret it to this day. I literally gave up my best cope in the form of hanging out with them and it haunts me endlessly. I still have dreams with them in it with us all hanging out again at the park or library. It would be too awkward to message them again after its been like nearly 2 years since ive ghosted.
Im a complete fucking idiot. I miss everything with them. I missed us ordering dominos together and eating it at their home while we watched an old horror movie. I missed us playing basketball at the park. I missed us going to see the latest horror/anime movie. I missed us going to the beach and crashing with the waves. I missed us playing uno and DnD in the public library.
I also blame my overprotective mom who kept calling me at fucking 5 pm telling me to return home and kept pestering me to the point where i thought if i never went again i wont have to deal with her calls
I SHOT MYSELF IN THE FUCKING FOOT AND I DESERVE IT. IM A COMPLETE FUCKING IDIOT AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE THEM BACK
It all went south when we graduated high school and it meant that to see them more often i had to take like a half hour bus ride to their neighborhood(they both lived close). I think i got tired of constantly leaving the house to go to them so at some point i decided i wouldnt respond to their texts when they ask if i wanted to hang. They ofcourse kept texting but i just wouldnt respond cause my social battery just felt so drained all the time that i didnt feel like talking to another person at all. Then at some point the texts stopped. They had forgotten me and i regret it to this day. I literally gave up my best cope in the form of hanging out with them and it haunts me endlessly. I still have dreams with them in it with us all hanging out again at the park or library. It would be too awkward to message them again after its been like nearly 2 years since ive ghosted.
Im a complete fucking idiot. I miss everything with them. I missed us ordering dominos together and eating it at their home while we watched an old horror movie. I missed us playing basketball at the park. I missed us going to see the latest horror/anime movie. I missed us going to the beach and crashing with the waves. I missed us playing uno and DnD in the public library.
I also blame my overprotective mom who kept calling me at fucking 5 pm telling me to return home and kept pestering me to the point where i thought if i never went again i wont have to deal with her calls
I SHOT MYSELF IN THE FUCKING FOOT AND I DESERVE IT. IM A COMPLETE FUCKING IDIOT AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE THEM BACK