I am a former professional runner,have a two years experience in boxing and mixed martial arts. But now i am home staying person. Since I don't work and have a mental disability (I get paid for it), I play video games almost all day. I do not drink alcohol and do not smoke. I like to meditate to music. The parents I live with (Mom and Stepfather) let me do whatever I want without interfering in my life and even trying to help me with my mental experiences. I do not like people for their cruelty and hypocrisy, while I do not give up trying to meet a girl on social networks (although I understand that I am unemployed and with mental problems, I am unlikely to be needed by anyone). I try to avoid stress and generally strain myself. If it were legal to smoke weed in my country, I would do it often. Sometimes I fuck girls for money, young and not so young (like 30-40). It brings physical satisfaction but does not reduce my mental suffering. Sometimes I wish to go into the world of dreams, where I would create my own kingdom inhabited by kind, loving good people who do not know what troubles and sadness are. I strive for my consciousness to reach another level of existence and I could exist peacefully even being in this society full of filth and cruelty. Otherwise, I am satisfied with my life, I am a whitepill and I wish everyone to find happiness and peace in life.
