SuicideFuel my ego is killing me, but i wont stop chasing my onitis

[GrandCurrycel]

i have been hopelessly chasing my oneitis for like 7-8 years now ( probably more ) out of sheer ego, i see her as a trophy to validate myself, i want to feel capable, i dont want to give up but i know this constant cuck chasing that one foid is slowly killing my spirit, i am not really capable but something in me just refuses to give up and cycle of pain keeps going on and it has a cost, slowly over the years it has worn out my mental fortitude and corroded my self image, i am not able to accept that i have lost this one. i even entertained a horrible 2/10 goblin becky ( my oneitis's ex bff ) for 7 years, even tolerated her extremely shitty behavior just because i need some hope and opening to keep looking at her, honestly i am taking too much damage for its worth but i cannot stop myself, i have invested myself soo much on this shit that quitting is simply impossible and when inevitable failure hits me ( she gets married )i have high probability of roping myself, its so over for me its so over

 

[iamsubhuman]

but i wont stop chasing my onitis​

stopped reading

 

[GrandCurrycel]

stopped reading

why

 

[LifeMaxxer]

Consider therapy

 

[ahenobarbus]

even worse than me

 

[DespressedCurryCel1]

 

[iamsubhuman]

why

 

[PLA1092]

You've been cucking yourself out to 8 years after a specific foid even after being a sub 5 curry who's accepted the blackpill?

More to live for than one particular whore.

My advice to all oneitiscels is to stop cucking and mentally obsessing over a foid who has already had and fantasizes about the top 20% of Chads and generally any other HTNs or above; all foids in the modern world have and fully intend to stick with their hypergamous ways and moral degeneracy regardless of even a redpilled Gigachad going against it, let alone a lone subhuman pathetically vying for her attention...

It does you no good to pretend like the one foid you've centered on is somehow different than the others; she resents you all the same for daring to exist as a subhuman and male she is not personally attracted to, and also for the various other negative characteristics she'll project onto you for your unattractive physical features.

 

[vidyacel]

You are ruining yourself over some retard who didn´t even acknowledge your existence.
Move on.

If she didn´t have a vagina but a pair of grapes on a stick, what would be your reaction ?

 

[Grim_Reaper]

Ok GrAYcuck

 

[Michael W. Ford]

@GrandCurrycel

Do you know the full name, and birthdate of your oneitis?

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Ok GrAYcuck

 

[GrandCurrycel]

@GrandCurrycel

Do you know the full name, and birthdate of your oneitis?

yes, need that ?

 

[GrandCurrycel]

You are ruining yourself over some retard who didn´t even acknowledge your existence.
Move on.

If she didn´t have a vagina but a pair of grapes on a stick, what would be your reaction ?

My mind has established her as some kind of benchmark for me to hit so i can feel that i achieved something and not doing so will undermine my self image ( i know that bitch is not worth it )

 

[GrandCurrycel]

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Thanks man

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

stopped reading

It makes me cringe a bit. Though, we are not strangers to race and oneitis on this site.

Re: im only going trick or treating because

Subjective_Anon Join Date: 2016-03-08 Post Count: 157

#200236125Monday, October 17, 2016 1:36 PM CDT Okay; why did you need to clarify your reason on the Internet? Is there another, hidden motive that affected your decision?

 

[HeroinNihilism]

7-8 years? it's over, son.

 

[No_Tears]

i have been hopelessly chasing my oneitis for like 7-8 years now ( probably more ) out of sheer ego, i see her as a trophy to validate myself, i want to feel capable, i dont want to give up but i know this constant cuck chasing that one foid is slowly killing my spirit, i am not really capable but something in me just refuses to give up and cycle of pain keeps going on and it has a cost, slowly over the years it has worn out my mental fortitude and corroded my self image, i am not able to accept that i have lost this one. i even entertained a horrible 2/10 goblin becky ( my oneitis's ex bff ) for 7 years, even tolerated her extremely shitty behavior just because i need some hope and opening to keep looking at her, honestly i am taking too much damage for its worth but i cannot stop myself, i have invested myself soo much on this shit that quitting is simply impossible and when inevitable failure hits me ( she gets married )i have high probability of roping myself, its so over for me its so over

have you actually had any progress with her (went on a date alone, exchanged phone numbers romantically, etc) at some point, or did you just talk with her once 7 years ago and you still decided to stick by her side for no reason

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

7-8 years? it's over, son.

"Son"...No, I easily mogged opposition some time ago.

 

[SeetheBot9000]

i have been hopelessly chasing my oneitis for like 7-8 years now

You know it's ovER, right? You know it never began, right? If she had even a semblance of intent towards dating/fucking you she would have put her cards on the table many years back. You are torturing yourself.

i even entertained a horrible 2/10 goblin becky ( my oneitis's ex bff ) for 7 years, even tolerated her extremely shitty behavior just because i need some hope and opening to keep looking at her

what do you mean you "entertained her"?

honestly i am taking too much damage for its worth but i cannot stop myself, i have invested myself soo much on this shit that quitting is simply impossible and when inevitable failure hits me ( she gets married )i have high probability of roping myself, its so over for me its so over

Sunk cost fallacy. Move on or die.

 

[Transcended Trucel]

give up boyo. Call it quits. This can't be good for youn

 

[GrandCurrycel]

have you actually had any progress with her (went on a date alone, exchanged phone numbers romantically, etc) at some point, or did you just talk with her once 7 years ago and you still decided to stick by her side for no reason

i used to talk to her, we had each others phone numbers

 

[GrandCurrycel]

what do you mean you "entertained her"?

dealt with her drama, legit consoled her during tough times with more effort than i would have spent on a casual stranger

 

[GrandCurrycel]

How the fuck are you so retarded that you chase some NPC whore for 7-8 years

there is nothing special about foids like 0

Cucks like you deserve to be shot

i can see that what i am doing is retarded but i cannot convince myself that 'one more time' is not worth it

 

[GrandCurrycel]

Like I never understood why people have a oneitis especially after being blackpilled and exposed to the true nature of foids

"loving" a foid only makes me more repulsed they are not special and don't deserve love

i dont 'love her' i am just obsessed.
for some bizarre reason my mind sees winning her as only way to validate

 

[GrandCurrycel]

Then kill her or fuck off from this forum we dont like people of your kind who cuck themselves and puts women on a pedestal too this degree

fuck off cunt

she is on no pedestal, im just caught up on some kind of mental trap
and i know it will ruin me bad

 

[GrandCurrycel]

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give up boyo. Call it quits. This can't be good for youn

over the years i have tried quitting enough times, i always keep coming back to obsessing over her, one way or other my mind find excuse to go back doing what it wants to do, no matter how irrational

 

[Zhou Chang-Xing]

i have been hopelessly chasing my oneitis for like 7-8 years now ( probably more ) out of sheer ego, i see her as a trophy to validate myself, i want to feel capable, i dont want to give up but i know this constant cuck chasing that one foid is slowly killing my spirit, i am not really capable but something in me just refuses to give up and cycle of pain keeps going on and it has a cost, slowly over the years it has worn out my mental fortitude and corroded my self image, i am not able to accept that i have lost this one. i even entertained a horrible 2/10 goblin becky ( my oneitis's ex bff ) for 7 years, even tolerated her extremely shitty behavior just because i need some hope and opening to keep looking at her, honestly i am taking too much damage for its worth but i cannot stop myself, i have invested myself soo much on this shit that quitting is simply impossible and when inevitable failure hits me ( she gets married )i have high probability of roping myself, its so over for me its so over

What do you think will happen even if you have her? She clearly isn't as passionate about you as you are about her. Your marriage would be identical to what you have now.

 

[GrandCurrycel]

What do you think will happen even if you have her? She clearly isn't as passionate about you as you are about her. Your marriage would be identical to what you have now.

this is an interesting take, winning would be utterly hollow yes
i can work with this input

 

[GrandCurrycel]

Just forget about her nigger your not gonna get her

i hope i manage to give up soon

 

[Izayacel]

You are ruining yourself over some retard who didn´t even acknowledge your existence.
Move on.

If she didn´t have a vagina but a pair of grapes on a stick, what would be your reaction ?

Woman would Be Turbo failures as Man , Imagine.

 

[vidyacel]

Woman would Be Turbo failures as Man , Imagine.

Precisely.

 

[Misogynist Curry 卐]

Mogs me. I can't even make a proper eye contact with my oneitis let alone talking to her, having her number and other kindred stuff.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Mogs me. I can't even make a proper eye contact with my oneitis let alone talking to her, having her number and other kindred stuff.

Something tells me she wouldn't gaze at you if you were bleeding to death.

 

[No_Tears]

i used to talk to her, we had each others phone numbers

it's over then, you made 0 progress and stayed friends for 7 years, if you ever try anything with her she'll not only reject you, but also see you as an asocial creep waiting in the shadows in hopes of getting a crumb of pussy, the lowest of the low

 

[Cock'nBalls]

errm..
Niggers?

 

[Izayacel]

Something tells me she wouldn't gaze at you if you were bleeding to death.

Brutal

 

[GrandCurrycel]

it's over then, you made 0 progress and stayed friends for 7 years, if you ever try anything with her she'll not only reject you, but also see you as an asocial creep waiting in the shadows in hopes of getting a crumb of pussy, the lowest of the low

she rejected me 6 years ago already, someone else leaked the news and she preemptively rejected my ass
we have not talked in a 5 years
its over af

 

[No_Tears]

she rejected me 6 years ago already, someone else leaked the news and she preemptively rejected my ass
we have not talked in a 5 years
its over af

then i don't even understand why you're obsessed with her, why not obsess over some bitch working at the grocery store or something? it would make more sense at least

 

[GrandCurrycel]

then i don't even understand why you're obsessed with her, why not obsess over some bitch working at the grocery store or something? it would make more sense at least

do you think i understand this shit i am going through ?

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

do you think i understand this shit i am going through ?

Oh...you need help from a veteran. I'll be taking the rest later today, and I'll aid you at that time for best results.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I see:

They both look like fat hogs

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[northwesterner]

You have my empathy, I hope you can get over this all very soon, it'd be for the best and you seem to know it. I struggle with the same thing, but I admit I don't have it as bad as you do (by that I mean, I was at able to somewhat get over it). Sorry about this man.

 

[No_Tears]

do you think i understand this shit i am going through ?

stop being a pussy faggot and just block her social medias, you'll never fuck her

 

[darkvoice87]

i have been hopelessly chasing my oneitis for like 7-8 years now ( probably more ) out of sheer ego, i see her as a trophy to validate myself, i want to feel capable, i dont want to give up but i know this constant cuck chasing that one foid is slowly killing my spirit, i am not really capable but something in me just refuses to give up and cycle of pain keeps going on and it has a cost, slowly over the years it has worn out my mental fortitude and corroded my self image, i am not able to accept that i have lost this one. i even entertained a horrible 2/10 goblin becky ( my oneitis's ex bff ) for 7 years, even tolerated her extremely shitty behavior just because i need some hope and opening to keep looking at her, honestly i am taking too much damage for its worth but i cannot stop myself, i have invested myself soo much on this shit that quitting is simply impossible and when inevitable failure hits me ( she gets married )i have high probability of roping myself, its so over for me its so over

You should pay someone to fuck her for you to break you out of this spell she has over you. Once you see the girl of your dreams (that you would do anything for!) happily having her face fucked by some chadlite/tyrone's cock, maybe then you'll realise how stupid and futile your obsession has been.

 

[tulasdanslos]

Jesus Christ, I thought it was bad being temporarily entranced and holding out hope for my beloved after she rejected me (RIP my little naive heart), but this is a whole other level of cucked. Consider the rope NOW! (insert LTG meme here)

 

[NuclearCel]

i have been hopelessly chasing my oneitis for like 7-8 years now ( probably more ) out of sheer ego, i see her as a trophy to validate myself, i want to feel capable, i dont want to give up but i know this constant cuck chasing that one foid is slowly killing my spirit, i am not really capable but something in me just refuses to give up and cycle of pain keeps going on and it has a cost, slowly over the years it has worn out my mental fortitude and corroded my self image, i am not able to accept that i have lost this one. i even entertained a horrible 2/10 goblin becky ( my oneitis's ex bff ) for 7 years, even tolerated her extremely shitty behavior just because i need some hope and opening to keep looking at her, honestly i am taking too much damage for its worth but i cannot stop myself, i have invested myself soo much on this shit that quitting is simply impossible and when inevitable failure hits me ( she gets married )i have high probability of roping myself, its so over for me its so over

How much estrogen did you put in your cereal to write this?

 

[ADHD_cel]

GrandCurrycel​

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[Misogynist Curry 卐]

Something tells me she wouldn't gaze at you if you were bleeding to death.

Yes, because I am short