Venting Living while feeling like an outsider on this planet

[Onlywaifusareforme]

From what I can tell, I have never felt like I "belonged" somewhere, mostly real life but also online. When it comes to friends, I do not recall having one until 12 years old, where I was able to find two people that shared similar interests in manga and anime with me. However, they stopped being my friends as they got farther and farther away from me, looking at me even more weird. I haven't really had any "friends" since then, at the very best I talk to some normie about casual stuff (When they approach me, they just ignore me when I approach them). I haven't had any relationship with a female, with my interaction with them stopping at exchanging a sentence or two once a month (Ignoring people like cashiers who just happen to be female, although I don't really talk to them that much either). My parents tried to get me a therapist but she just fucking "going on surprise breaks" when my appointment was approaching. I was forced by peer pressure from the government to get a psychiatrist but that bitch fucking ghosted me. Any officials just look at me weird if they have heard of me. Even online, I have gotten kicked from too many "Safe spaces" for being too weird. I just hate this world and how every single fucking person treats me like I'm the worst being there is. I fucking hate this.

 

[Animecel2D]

We were not meant for this world

 

[VanGobbel]

Even online, I have gotten kicked from too many "Safe spaces" for being too weird.

Brootal

 

[McFlurryCel]

We were not meant for this world

 

[Mr Producer]

long story short its over, one might even say it never began.

 

[Oogger]

Something that ive noticed is that not only I got treated badly in school/different environments leadingn to me having no friends and the only ones are gone after a year but I usually get treated like that online aswell, I already left like two communities of Le "based" people...so yeah I also got basically kicked from online shit too.

 

[KhatcodaiA3]

Brootal. I have always felt the same until I joined ultraweeb small gaming communities, and still it feels out of place at times.
This shithole as well, it will never provide the warmth a close real-life community does. It will never fully give that sense of warm belonging, but sometimes I find myself looking at the sky and remembering the lives of others here. Closest it can get to an understanding embrace

 

[Oogger]

This has led me to increased self isolation,my OCD makes it already hard to have convos,my constant anxiety and thoughts make it feel like everyones to out get me and I feel like bullish/dominant people notice this and tease me harder to get a reaction.

 

[Onlywaifusareforme]

long story short its over, one might even say it never began.

Fair assessment

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

I'm not an alien, I'm just deeply hated and despised by every human being ever. Friends, girls, school, jobs, I'm unwanted and rejected everywhere.
People don't even try to hide that they want me dead or locked up in my basement forever. Going outside is always a mistake. Everything is impossible.

My parents tried to get me a therapist but she just fucking "going on surprise breaks" when my appointment was approaching. I was forced by peer pressure from the government to get a psychiatrist but that bitch fucking ghosted me.

JFL, same happened to me, therapist said that I was a bad case and they should've seen if I had anything that could be diagnosed first, so she sent me to a psychiatrist, but he told my parents (they were the ones who called at the time) to call later and then he just ghosted them. I am too poor and high-inhib to try again with another one myself so I don't even have any diagnosis and I can't get autismbuxx.

 

[Spiteful Mutant]

long story short its over, one might even say it never began.

 

[Onlywaifusareforme]

I am too poor and high-inhib to try again with another one myself so I don't even have any diagnosis and I can't get autismbuxx.

Same. I'm spending 18 hours of working wage just to get a psychiatrist once a week and I haven't had a diagnosis. unless I get a diagnosis within my next one or two visits, I'm fucking bound to be have all my autism problems without any of the money that comes with it

I'm not an alien, I'm just deeply hated and despised by every human being ever. Friends, girls, school, jobs, I'm unwanted and rejected everywhere.
People don't even try to hide that they want me dead or locked up in my basement forever. Going outside is always a mistake. Everything is impossible.

You are me and I am you

 

[St3v3Cel]

Even online, I have gotten kicked from too many "Safe spaces" for being too weird.

Story of my life. Hobby spaces are so depressing. One would think that they would be about the hobby, but they are really just social groups with logos. Not even 10% of the discussion or activities these groups do have anything to do with the actual topic. When I start talking about basic shit people treat me like I'm fucking Nardwuar. So few real nerds in the world.

 

[RottingMentalIago]

Even online, I have gotten kicked from too many "Safe spaces" for being too weird.

Online safe spaces are there for retarded women and soys. Autism spaces are some of the most hostile places to general autistic men.

 

[Onlywaifusareforme]

Online safe spaces are there for retarded women and soys. Autism spaces are some of the most hostile places to general autistic men.

Well said, I used to fall for the delusion these "Safe spaces" are actually great for autistic men but their idea of autism is just "Htn that has a single non mainstream interest" or just a cuck. I've learned better as I grew though.

 

[RottingMentalIago]

Well said, I used to fall for the delusion these "Safe spaces" are actually great for autistic men but their idea of autism is just "Htn that has a single non mainstream interest" or just a cuck. I've learned better as I grew though.

ADHD spaces are much better. But adhd “people” are utter degenerates and almost all of them are bisexual. Still there’s less moderation.


Autism spaces are heavily moderated by obese “autistic” women and soys. I got banned from an autism online community because I refused to put pronouns in my profile.

 

[Onlywaifusareforme]

I got banned from an autism online community because I refused to put pronouns in my profile.

Fucking ridiculous and hilarious. I had my own share of people like that too, got banned from a safe server because I said "obese people can cause problems."

ADHD spaces are much better. But adhd “people” are utter degenerates and almost all of them are bisexual. Still there’s less moderation.

I noticed this as well. They're such degenerates that at least I have some space to show myself before being banned but some things still apply.

 

[RottingMentalIago]

Fucking ridiculous and hilarious. I had my own share of people like that too, got banned from a safe server because I said "obese people can cause problems."

I noticed this as well. They're such degenerates that at least I have some space to show myself before being banned but some things still apply.

ADHD people are normally more like 2000s era liberals except for Reddit adhd communities which are predominantly AuDHD and therefore woke because of the autistics.

So adhd people are still degenerates but they’re degenerates like 2004 Saturday night talk show host, not degenerate like “my pronouns are she/him/theirs I want to ban anything I don’t like and I can’t cope with the tags on my clothes” like autism communities are.