I don't hate anyone, man; it wouldn't change the reality of my lifea life full of suffering and anguish. I blame myself for my failure; others have nothing to do with my pain. My own decisions led me to this extreme pain. Nothing in this life matters; Iโll die and be forgotten, just as Iโm forgotten and humiliated while Iโm alive. Iโve helped so many people, and they all turned their backs on me. I just accept it; there isn't much to be done. The "black pill" is in everythingin death, anguish, sadness, disappointment, betrayal, grief, and illness. Life is black and white; itโs nothing but pain and suffering. Even if I had sex or got a wife, nothing would change. Iโm used to pain, rejection, and failure. Iโm just waiting for death; nothing I do to improve things will make a difference.I am here all alone todaywithout friends, family, or a wife. It fills me with such anguishan agony that feels like deathknowing everyone has abandoned me. 
