After doing a bit of work, Iโll go back to my usual routinethat is, rotting away while staring at the ceiling and thinking about how different my life could have been, watching my old friends build something meaningful while I get forgotten in the real world.These days have been hard for me; I feel an ache in my heart and soulan immense sadness. Iโm on the verge of a breakdown todaySundayand itโs a terrible day. I understand those incels who committed suicide; Iโm heading down the same path if nothing changes. Life is an enormous burden; it gets worse every day, nothing changes, and the pain grows. Iโm forgotten, and as time goes on, Iโll grow old with no family, no friends, no one. Honestly, I feel like a Japanese person born in the wrong country.I stink and can't take a shower; the situation is brutal.
