Blackpill Just realized that I haven’t really held a conversation with anyone irl for 3 years

[ADHD_cel]

As much as I enjoy my solitary lifestyle and hate interacting with normies, it’s making me depressed from time to time. Sometimes I feel a strong sense of derealisation when going outside for grocery or coffee, especially after reading too much blackpill/neurodiversity stuff.

 

[ThebegottenSon]

Not possible, I just spoke to my Amazon delivery driver

 

[ADHD_cel]

Not possible, I just spoke to my Amazon delivery driver

Cashiers and deliverers don’t count, kek.

 

[ThebegottenSon]

Cashiers and deliverers don’t count, kek.

Family ?

 

[ADHD_cel]

Family ?

Only video chat with my mom

 

[ADHD_cel]

I speak with my mother sparingly, but for the most part I am on 4 years now. I haven't drowned in any of the blackpill/neurodiversity stuff though, just been stewing in my own failures and negative thoughts. I don't need to know the blackpill inside and out, see no point.

Not looking forward to re-entering the real world. At least I know what I am now - I am under no illusions or false hopes.

The neurodiversity stuff dealt greater damage to me than the looks pill ngl. At least I wasn’t THAT ugly in my younger years. But the NT pill made me realize how much of a cringe I was in peoples’ eyes and understand the humiliations done to me years ago. Now I don’t even dare to speak to people irl anymore.

 

[surreal]

You don't speak with the escorts you book every night?

 

[ADHD_cel]

Do you feel robotic, overthinking each motion, when you are doing the act? Or perhaps you are able to relax and enjoy the experience?

Ngl when I was bluepilled I didn’t overthink at all, and sex felt great. After getting blackpilled there was a phase where I wanted to “show” the foids how good I could fuck which made me more nervous. Now I just take the pleasure without thinking too much (well sometimes I still feel painful knowing that I could fuck such stacys for free if I was born gigachad).

 

[gangrenemax]

As much as I enjoy my solitary lifestyle and hate interacting with normies, it’s making me depressed from time to time. Sometimes I feel a strong sense of derealisation when going outside for grocery or coffee, especially after reading too much blackpill/neurodiversity stuff.

nigga what about your escorts are they dead fish?

 

[ADHD_cel]

nigga what about your escorts are they dead fish?

I don’t consider those as “conversations”, just basic greetings and question-answer mode for 5 minutes, kek.

 

[gangrenemax]

I don’t consider those as “conversations”, just basic greetings and question-answer mode for 5 minutes, kek.

she's on your time you paid for it make the bitch speak

 

[NiBBaCel]

How you afford rent food etc ?