
Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I understand the mechanisms behind anxiety, my bachelor's is in Psychology. But I can't help it, my mind is just so screwed over by an entire life of crap.
My brain goes into overdrive, comparing myself to everyone, analyzing everything. Even if it's just a normal environment without anything exceptional, I'm still anxiety-ridden. I think of all my past mistakes, all my embarrassments, all the things that made me become the mess I am now, I think of what life could've been, I think about how fucked I am even compared to the average human.
Deep in my bones I'm a proud person. I say I'm dumb a lot, but I do think of myself as very smart. I can't help it, it's who I am, it's the one thing I have over others. And contrasting this belief that I'm so smart with the shit reality I'm living and my apparent inferiority and lack of experiences even compared to the average person is crippling,
My brain goes into overdrive, comparing myself to everyone, analyzing everything. Even if it's just a normal environment without anything exceptional, I'm still anxiety-ridden. I think of all my past mistakes, all my embarrassments, all the things that made me become the mess I am now, I think of what life could've been, I think about how fucked I am even compared to the average human.
Deep in my bones I'm a proud person. I say I'm dumb a lot, but I do think of myself as very smart. I can't help it, it's who I am, it's the one thing I have over others. And contrasting this belief that I'm so smart with the shit reality I'm living and my apparent inferiority and lack of experiences even compared to the average person is crippling,