Involuntary Social Adaptations

[Perturber]

After being an outcast for so long i have noticed over the course of years my physche has changed alot, i dont even know if i can call them "bad" changes, they are just changes.

-Structure my entire day around avoiding people unless its for work. i cant relate to anybody i knew so i isolated myself a while back.
-99% of the time i dont even listen to what people say.. i just use the little bit of energy i have, to modulate my facial expressions, to make it seem like im listening.
-Paranoia and anxiety at social gatherings with more than like, 5 people. whenever there's a laugh or change in tone i automatically assume its at my expense, usually its not but i cant convince my mind of that.
-Have to carry a self defense weapon all the time because for some fucking reason people always wanna start shit with me over the smallest infractions or perceived disrespect that i didnt intend.
-Try my best to not pay attention to anybody [esp female] while out, avoiding eyes. for some reason ive noticed it really saps my energy.

anybody care to share theirs? sometimes i feel like im slowly devolving into a much more pathetic man, but idk. i used to be so confident, cheerful and happy.

 

[Deleted member 24081]

For some reason I struggle to be able to describe what’s changed. Are the “changes” even that, or have I always been like that? Why do I feel different? Why do I lack energy and emotion in my life?

Also, you mog me with self defense. Defending yourself is illegal in my country.

 

[Emba]

Perhaps you should look into...

"The adapters movement"

 

[Sportbro]

For some reason I struggle to be able to describe what’s changed. Are the “changes” even that, or have I always been like that? Why do I feel different? Why do I lack energy and emotion in my life?

Also, you mog me with self defense. Defending yourself is illegal in my country.

It's a coping tactic, suppress and isolate, less attention that you garner=less chances you get picked on by normies

 

[dahmer]

Thats completely natural for an incel
Keep fighting the good fight brocel

 

[FallenPrime]

According to normoids, foids and soyciety:

Being sub 8 as a male = Being Evil