Venting I hate being in social interactions.

[caineturbat2003]

Not because I am shy or have social anxiety. I can socialize just fine, but when I interact with people, it just feels wrong. It's like my nervous system is giving me these feelings of fatigue and tiredness and I quickly lose any interest in whatever I was doing with someone. I haven't been like this, well maybe not before I got BPed, at least. I was never the same after the BP, I feel a sort of malice, contempt or just pure apathy around people. I don't like anybody I have ever met in my life. I used to when I was a kid, but as I matured I've started to hate the people I once knew.

In contrast with being alone, I feel total peace and solitude.

 

[chihiro]

i like being alone but i dont like feeling alone

 

[deleted dude]

Overstimulation. Might be a sign of autism or giftedness, or high sensitivity

 

[caineturbat2003]

Overstimulation. Might be a sign of autism or giftedness, or high sensitivity

Yea, I don't have a room of my own. My house is small, there's 1 bedroom and a living room. My parents and I share this bedroom while my former grandparents that are now dead used the living room. Now they are dead and it sort of became a habit for my parents to sleep in my room. For a period, back in 2024 to 2025 I've managed to ban my parents to use my room and finally start to get their asses to use the living room.

But because I am a mentally ill fuck, my mind decided to pull some OCD bullshit that it almost brought me to the brink of insanity. I was in a vulnerable position and I needed my peeps to check on me 24/7. A year has passed, now I am in 2026 and they ended up in their old habit to use my room again. Seriously, back in 2024 I tried to make some changes in my life for the better only for my mind to say no and ruin it even further. Honestly, fuck my life. I never had a chance to begin with.

 

[tired as fuck]

Not because I am shy or have social anxiety. I can socialize just fine, but when I interact with people, it just feels wrong. It's like my nervous system is giving me these feelings of fatigue and tiredness and I quickly lose any interest in whatever I was doing with someone. I haven't been like this, well maybe not before I got BPed, at least. I was never the same after the BP, I feel a sort of malice, contempt or just pure apathy around people. I don't like anybody I have ever met in my life. I used to when I was a kid, but as I matured I've started to hate the people I once knew.

In contrast with being alone, I feel total peace and solitude.

Personally, I find that I can't relate to others anymore once I started thinking for myself, and I am hyper aware of the shallowness of social interaction, of the inherent competition between males in the presence of foids and allat shit. It's just fucked up.

 

[Mailercel]

Not because I am shy or have social anxiety. I can socialize just fine, but when I interact with people, it just feels wrong. It's like my nervous system is giving me these feelings of fatigue and tiredness and I quickly lose any interest in whatever I was doing with someone. I haven't been like this, well maybe not before I got BPed, at least. I was never the same after the BP, I feel a sort of malice, contempt or just pure apathy around people. I don't like anybody I have ever met in my life. I used to when I was a kid, but as I matured I've started to hate the people I once knew.

In contrast with being alone, I feel total peace and solitude.

Being alone gives me massive FOMO, people going out, having experiences that you aren’t having.

 

[caineturbat2003]

Personally, I find that I can't relate to others anymore once I started thinking for myself, and I am hyper aware of the shallowness of social interaction, of the inherent competition between males in the presence of foids and allat shit. It's just fucked up.

Yea, the competition is just pure normalfag brainrot. Rather than cooperating with each other in order to reach a sort of utopian pro-male society, they would rather fight each other for some slut that will cuck them with chad in about a week.

 

[caineturbat2003]

Being alone gives me massive FOMO, people going out, having experiences that you aren’t having.

Back then I would get sad over what I am missing out on my life. Now I just feel pure apathy asking myself "what's the fucking point?".

 

[tired as fuck]

Being alone gives me massive FOMO, people going out, having experiences that you aren’t having.

eh, to me they aren't worth much. Experience this, experience that, at the end of the day everyone is posing as if those experiences actually matter to them after they post a few stories on Instagram. the fomo doesn't hit me anymore.

 

[Mailercel]

Back then I would get sad over what I am missing out on my life. Now I just feel pure apathy asking myself "what's the fucking point?".

I get that, I feel like if you atleast have something to work towards, NOT WAGECUCKERY but like painting or carpentery idk, then you can crush that feeling. Like how foids get cats to cope with having zero children.

 

[caineturbat2003]

eh, to me they aren't worth much. Experience this, experience that, at the end of the day everyone is posing as if those experiences actually matter to them after they post a few stories on Instagram. the fomo doesn't hit me anymore.

Exactly, once you grow up you start to feel like some sort of apathy to it. Yea, you will cry to it once you realise, but later you won't care anymore.

 

[caineturbat2003]

I get that, I feel like if you atleast have something to work towards, NOT WAGECUCKERY but like painting or carpentery idk, then you can crush that feeling. Like how foids get cats to cope with having zero children.

Here's the thing, I tried to get my shit together back in late 2024 to early 2025. The problem is that my OCD mind keeps sabotaging me. Not to mention I have enormous amount of addictions due to my loneliness and shit childhood that I might as well be stuck to this computer.

 

[Mailercel]

Here's the thing, I tried to get my shit together back in late 2024 to early 2025. The problem is that my OCD mind keeps sabotaging me. Not to mention I have enormous amount of addictions due to my loneliness and shit childhood that I might as well be stuck to this computer.

I feel like it’s just what you are comfortable with, a cycle of bad interactions makes you not want to engage with anything outside your comfort zone much. The addiction part is so true, It’s like you have a stretch of a week before you relapse and then say “When I’m through feeling shit I’ll pick it up then” and then you binge youtube or some show for the next 3 weeks.

 

[RandomGuy]