I thought no one actually gave a fuck about me here anymore, One time theyre my friends, Next they have decided im an enemy, This forum and a few other cel forums is my only cope for social interaction when im not rotting in insurgency sandstorm or legos, I keep getting DNR and this user should kill himself, Im in so much chronic pain.
Ive always been that oh shit not this guy again dude and im honestly tired, People dislike me so much that it would actually satisfy them irl or online if i went ahead with the roping, I tried twice 2 months ago but i just couldnt pass out, I made sure to pick a day where i knew i expected company so they would kick open the door the same day as no one would hear from me bc of my cat, Left plenty of food and water for him for a week incase it would take that long, But i couldnt die, I just didnt.
I have a retard nose that just wont get straight im always bullied for it, Im autistic and 24, Im cursed.
Im good at problem solving and have excellent skills and a fast learner but i guess no employer cares about that because im ugly and the few times ive been working out of nowhere a boomer has offered to beat me up and sometimes i dont even know why, The world is just hostile and dangerous to me, People either wanna beat me up or cuss at me or look at me or make grimazes, Its like im not even human, These 2 months ive been coping heavily with lego and whiskey, I drink whiskey and build lego sets while in extreme chronic pain bc one side has collapesed, My parents say lets just goto the nervedoctor and burn some nerves but the appointment is still not here, What if we do burn some nerves and suddenly it keeps collapsing and i wont feel it, If my nose havent been fixed by 25 atleast, Im 24 now with a bday comingup, Then i might have to KMS, My goverment which is 1st world doenst give a shit and have way too long waiting list, On the paper it says april 2024 my parents say im first in line but its been a fucking month since i heard that.