Venting Inceldom is turning me into a degenerate

[sinclair_silence]

I wasted hours tonight indulging in vice and watching perverted shit while chads at my school fuck their stacy gf. I want to rip my skin off I cannot describe the hatred I have for my pathetic self. Thankfully it wasn't porn just weird corners of youtube. I have kept myself from the grip of porn, thank God, but I am still so fucking disgusting I actually want to kill myself.

I could have spent all those time writing theory or doing work or writing down things that happened in the day but instead schizo binged on this worthless shit I fucking hate myself. I have exams in days and how can I focus with the mental turmoil.

 

[KING NOTHING]

What kind of content were you consuming?

 

[yung loner]

kids.is

 

[lifeisfucked215]

Yeah I get exactly what you mean. My brain is so rotted that I can't do anything productive anymore

 

[sinclair_silence]

What kind of content were you consuming?

Female piss desperation fetish at first and then I just started started clicking random shit…

 

[sinclair_silence]

kids.is

fuck no I'm 20 and I take great pride in keeping my consumption of outright porn to a minimum… doesn't mean I'm a good person though

 

[KING NOTHING]

Female piss desperation fetish at first and then I just started started clicking random shit…

If you find yourself wasting time like this you're honestly better off just turning it off and wanking to your thoughts.
Once you finish you won't touch that shit again for a while.

 

[UglyDumbass]

fuck no I'm 20 and I take great pride in keeping my consumption of outright porn to a minimum… doesn't mean I'm a good person though

we still say kids.is to 20 year olds on here

 

[sinclair_silence]

If you find yourself wasting time like this you're honestly better off just turning it off and wanking to your thoughts.
Once you finish you won't touch that shit again for a while.

Yes I typically just jerk off to my thoughts or even not thinking at all. The last time I waas seeing that content was over a month ago.

 

[sinclair_silence]

Yeah I get exactly what you mean. My brain is so rotted that I can't do anything productive anymore

I'm probably going to watch more shit before I go to sleep at 3 am and wake up past noon and waste half the day. It's over.

 

[Tacomonkey]

Female piss desperation fetish at first and then I just started started clicking random shit…

It’s over for me because I’m hideous. It’s over for you because you love piss porn. We are not the same.

 

[lifeisfucked215]

I'm probably going to watch more shit before I go to sleep at 3 am and wake up past noon and waste half the day. It's over.

This is exactly what I did today and my only day off from work was today

 

[sinclair_silence]

This is exactly what I did today and my only day off from work was today

If I had knives like the guy in my avi I would have run myself through by now. I remember the first times years ago when I was having suicidal thoughts it was by knives.

 

[SteelCentaur]

It’s over for me because I’m hideous. It’s over for you because you love piss porn. We are not the same.

 

[StephenK]

Remember when I used to watch porn and jerk off to that shit, it got to the point where I got so depressed that crap won't even help or even entertain me.

 

[StephenK]

If I had knives like the guy in my avi I would have run myself through by now. I remember the first times years ago when I was having suicidal thoughts it was by knives

Knives will take you there really slow, any specific method using a knife?

 

[sinclair_silence]

Knives will take you there really slow, any specific method using a knife?

Stab through the chest is what I thought of—here is an excerpt of a poem I wrote at 15

"Thus, I draw the knife, and drive it through my chest, / And then lay down to eternal rest."

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

kids.is

He could be in college.