I know man, my recent rejection literally made me overdose on the blackpill, but for the greater good. My crush is probably getting banged by her chadlite boyfriend right now.
I kid you not, i tried to confess to her 2 months ago but i got rejected. I never did anything excessive besides triple texting and asking where she lived (because during that time, there was a pretty difficult group assignment but I was super unlucky for not being put in the same group as her, I still wanted to help because I liked her), but she never replied. It was hard to imagine when we had a pretty fun chatting session on a messaging app for 2 weeks, and it made me anxious the whole time. I decided to prepare some snacks for her on the next day at school (it was Monday). I was sitting two tables away from her, her group was the first one to do the presentation. There was this guy who is a chadlite, a pretty feminine one, they were put in the same group (they only started to date recently). While they were doing their work, she glanced at me in a very intimidating way for whatever reason. Then, she looked really mad because the teacher was criticizing her, I tried to wave at her and smile like an idiot. After their session ended, the break time started - a 5 minutes break. I decided to text a foid who is my cousin, also my classmate, for help (at that time I wasn't even fully blackpilled). She didn't bother to help so I did it myself. I texted her first but she didn't reply, so i decided to walk to her table. Asking her: "Hey, are you hungry? I have something for you to snack on. I assume you're hungry because you haven't eaten anything this morning. Don't worry about the teacher's criticism, you'll get it next time."
She glanced at me again, then said a harsh "NO" with no reaction. I was confused, until 5 minutes later, she blocked me on the messaging app. At night, I almost cried because I thought I had the chance to confess to her, it was a heavy feeling filled with anxiety because she gave me the silent treatment for no reason. I decided to look positive and believed that she probably had a bad mood. Not until Wednesday, i came to a political economy class, sitting 2 tables behind her. She overheard her saying with another foid next seat, something about me. She said: "You know i have my own preferences right? Like i think someone in this class just had a crush with me and he has been texting me a lot recently, but i'm not interest. He's also too ugly for me, he had an attitude problem with me the first time we encountered in the English Speaking class, it was a year ago. I want tall Korean boyfriend blah blah blah"
I was embarrassed after hearing her talking about my back like that, and she also shared with a lot of people to the point where people started messing with me, treating me with the disgusted looks everyday.
(For the record, the first time we met, I was acting a bit crazy because I was dealing with psychotic episode from schizophrenia, depression and insomnia. I was sleep deprived to the point where I got mad at everything easily. We were assigned as a pair, we had to speak in a dialogue about a certain topic. She was not a good English speaker at all, with high inhibition, weak pronunciation and the lack of comprehension to make a sentence. I still tried to help her to get a pass, by thinking really quickly. That's when i started to fall in love with her because of the way she acted - she was very shy. Just like me when i was younger. If i had to rate, she's probably a LTB, a 5/10 ricefoid, while me a 3.5/10)
Now she has this one chadlite boyfriend who is 5'5 and possibly a faggot, but they seemed very close whenever i came to class. Even a month ago, when we took an exam together, she never even wanted to look at me. Dressed fancy with full makeup, for what? Hanging out and getting fucked with the chadlite nigger.
I hated it, I still do. The blackpill just made me a smarter person. Someone also told me to start from the bottom, pick a foid who is uglier than me in my class (I noticed this one who is a 2/10 but she never approached me as well). I tried that when I was 15 and it failed miserably
