In memory of @GreaseCel

[happiless]

He's dead, and suicide is blackpilled so I posted it here. RIP young cel

I was thinking I was feeling kind of depressed today. I but I realized this feeling has been with me all my life. I see I have never felt real happiness, at least not since I was around 14 and my intense inferiorities didn’t really matter. Back when I truly only cared to play my video games.

Each day since then has only gotten worse. I remember learning about Elliot when the retribution happened, back when I was 17. It was the first time I felt some kind of understanding, I was relieved to find someone who suffered just as I do.

Obviously I only joined this forum recently but I’ve been browsing it since around July of last year when it was called incels.me. The threads on this sight only confirmed what I already knew. But again, I felt solace in having found a community of people who know the pain.

That pain being, without a doubt, the most crippling any human could face. This assertion is laughed off by the communities built around harassing our misery.

But today I finally decided I actually want to end my life. I’m only 22, much younger than many members here. But I can’t imagine another year of this, let alone another decade, or a fucking lifetime.

I have several guns that were left to me by my grandfather. I’m going to use the most powerful of the tools to ensure I don’t accidentally turn myself into a retard/vegetable, which would render me unable to even attempt again, yet I would have to suffer on.

I plan on doing this at about 4 in the morning, CST. That time is significant to me and is why I chose it after careful pondering. Who knows. Perhaps I will just pussy out from my natural instincts and if I do I assure you I will be right back here, posting and rotting as is my life’s only choice.

And I know I am relatively new here, but like I said I’ve been following this forum for some time, and living in reality “blackpilled” for even longer. But I truly care for each of my brothers here. I was certainly considering trying to join the ranks of hERos. But my family are good people despite being a part of some of the worlds toxicity.

My sister in particular turned out good looking unlike me, however I am proud of her because she, unlike most foids, has actually maintained most of her decency and is far more well rounded than the typical scourge of this world. So out of respect for my family’s name I decided attempting to achieve Saint status isn’t a good option for me. I will simply have to leave this world just as I existed in it, quietly and forgotten.

My brothers. You may see me again. I feel certain of going through with this tonight as of now, but of course I’m not sure what will happen in the moment. It’s something that’s been coming for some time. I already made my pilgrimage for Elliot, which I did earlier this year. But if I don’t return. Stay strong. Fight on. If you are stronger than me, perhaps there is a brighter future ahead. But I feel too weak to hold out and see. Maybe I will get lucky, and be sat beneath the throne of our saints.

 

[Deleted member 11032]

RIP

 

[Awoo]

RIP brave sir.


Your watch is ended.

 

[Deleted member 16455]

I really hope he isn’t dead

 

[Awoo]

I really hope he isn’t dead

42 posts recruit.

Good chance it was just a baitpost.

But I choose to believe.

 

[MarriedAndLookin4Fun]

It's over for him

 

[Deleted member 14805]

If he really took his life, then I'll leave him with this....

I hold no grudge against him for taking his own life. Life is cruel and evil to so much as average men, when you're bullied/ostracized throughout your life, then having to wageslave while being deprived of love , affection and acceptance, it will take a toll on you especially if you don't have good copes to help numb the pain.

So @GreaseCel If you really have taken your own life, I hope you are resting peacefully not having to endure anymore pain. RIP!

 

[Insomniac]

• Multiple votes are allowed.

 

[StaroRavager]

You never can tell here I can count on one hand the amount of suicide threads that haven’t been debunked and that’s only because the members in question didn’t post on that very same account within a few days after posting their farewells. I’d say only 1/15 suicide threads here contain any semblance of legitimacy

 

[FukFeminism]

Well if you would like to know what happened. I was prepared to do it at 4am just as I had planned. I was really scared to do it just like I expected so I ended up trying to get drunk to get over the fear. I ended up drinking too much and somehow fell asleep in a compromising position. I was awakened many hours later by my dad who was freaking the fuck out after finding me in my room passed out with a gun right next to me and a suicide note I had left for him to find on my bed.

At this point I felt confused because I had forgotten what I had been doing, but also obviously I wasn't going to blow out my brains in front of my dad. He took all my guns immediately and he talked to me for at least 3 hours. He even called my sister. Long story short he took my guns, I'm being forced into psychiatric evaluation, and now my family is really fucking weird with me. I'm just worried that this might somehow end up on my record because he even had police come to our house and shit. It would be very unfortunate if this situation prevents me from purchasing firearms somehow in the future.


Almost didn't want to come back after having posted a thread about killing myself but what is life anyway. And it is very sweet that some of you are actually concerned about me and it tugs the heartstrings. I shouldn't have said anything about it at all but I was pretty sure about it happening until my dad woke me up.

And at first I did actually feel relieved that my dad had caught me the way he did. But idk shortly after I started feeling about the same. I guess life is always going to fuck you no matter what. It's been a really weird couple of days for me and I had to spend all day today and yesterday with psychiatrists. Inb4 they are bluepilled

 

[ElliotRodgerGod]

Well if you would like to know what happened. I was prepared to do it at 4am just as I had planned. I was really scared to do it just like I expected so I ended up trying to get drunk to get over the fear. I ended up drinking too much and somehow fell asleep in a compromising position. I was awakened many hours later by my dad who was freaking the fuck out after finding me in my room passed out with a gun right next to me and a suicide note I had left for him to find on my bed.

At this point I felt confused because I had forgotten what I had been doing, but also obviously I wasn't going to blow out my brains in front of my dad. He took all my guns immediately and he talked to me for at least 3 hours. He even called my sister. Long story short he took my guns, I'm being forced into psychiatric evaluation, and now my family is really fucking weird with me. I'm just worried that this might somehow end up on my record because he even had police come to our house and shit. It would be very unfortunate if this situation prevents me from purchasing firearms somehow in the future.


Almost didn't want to come back after having posted a thread about killing myself but what is life anyway. And it is very sweet that some of you are actually concerned about me and it tugs the heartstrings. I shouldn't have said anything about it at all but I was pretty sure about it happening until my dad woke me up.

And at first I did actually feel relieved that my dad had caught me the way he did. But idk shortly after I started feeling about the same. I guess life is always going to fuck you no matter what. It's been a really weird couple of days for me and I had to spend all day today and yesterday with psychiatrists. Inb4 they are bluepilled

It seems like you're in a worse situation than before.

 

[FrustratedWhiteMale]

Hopefully a joke.

 

[Damo the incel]

He's literally online right now m8

 

[Reize]

RIP brave sir.


Your watch is ended.

His watch has ended

His watch has ended

shit, now i look like a fucking idiot, lets hope this goes into oblivion

 

[Hikikomori]

R.I.P to any and all cels that have took their final breath tbh. Life is a brutal and cold bitch.

 

[FinnCel]

Fuck the society for not even admitting inceldom is torture