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I took a couple weeks off this site to focus on my mental health and fix my life.
During that time I came across a Theo Von clip talking about how if “nothing changes, nothing changes” and “if you keep doing what you’ve always done, you’ll keep getting what you’ve always got”
I really thought about and I took it to heart. After careful thought, I decided to not have a job and drop out of college.
Now, to almost everyone this sounds crazy, but in some way it makes sense to me.
Most people would find my situation unsure and scary, but frankly I find it freeing, and reassuring.
Since I’m not doing anything right now, I can do whatever I want whenever I want. I can change my life at my whims because I am not tied down by anything.
Ever since I decided to change my life, drop out of college and become unemployed, my life has been a lot better and I feel a lot happier. Total freedom is like an ocean breeze after being trapped in the desert.
I suspect that this feeling, this good part of my life can’t last a forever, as reality will kick in eventually.
I know that to live a good fulfilling life, I can’t live like this forever, and I need to change, and do something eventually.
At this moment it is great, but if I’m at the same point in life in a few years that would suck.
I have been thinking about my future, and I realized now that I dropped out, I have a lot of options.
I could go back to college next year, and try again. Community college, CSUs, and some out of state colleges are still taking applications.
I could just get a job at a grocery store or warehouse or something like that. Or food, service or retail, although that seems emotionally tiring.
I could just chill for a year and enroll in college in 2027.
But I’m also thinking about joining the military. I have already decided what branch I would choose if I was to join.
And then there are the more unrealistic plans. Become an actor or author, things of that nature.
And there are a lot of people who drop out of their freshman year of college, it’s not like I’m the only one.
But at the end of the day, I’m still only 19. I can figure it out, I have time.
I have faith that eventually it will all work out. I have faith in god’s plan.
During that time I came across a Theo Von clip talking about how if “nothing changes, nothing changes” and “if you keep doing what you’ve always done, you’ll keep getting what you’ve always got”
I really thought about and I took it to heart. After careful thought, I decided to not have a job and drop out of college.
Now, to almost everyone this sounds crazy, but in some way it makes sense to me.
Most people would find my situation unsure and scary, but frankly I find it freeing, and reassuring.
Since I’m not doing anything right now, I can do whatever I want whenever I want. I can change my life at my whims because I am not tied down by anything.
Ever since I decided to change my life, drop out of college and become unemployed, my life has been a lot better and I feel a lot happier. Total freedom is like an ocean breeze after being trapped in the desert.
I suspect that this feeling, this good part of my life can’t last a forever, as reality will kick in eventually.
I know that to live a good fulfilling life, I can’t live like this forever, and I need to change, and do something eventually.
At this moment it is great, but if I’m at the same point in life in a few years that would suck.
I have been thinking about my future, and I realized now that I dropped out, I have a lot of options.
I could go back to college next year, and try again. Community college, CSUs, and some out of state colleges are still taking applications.
I could just get a job at a grocery store or warehouse or something like that. Or food, service or retail, although that seems emotionally tiring.
I could just chill for a year and enroll in college in 2027.
But I’m also thinking about joining the military. I have already decided what branch I would choose if I was to join.
And then there are the more unrealistic plans. Become an actor or author, things of that nature.
And there are a lot of people who drop out of their freshman year of college, it’s not like I’m the only one.
But at the end of the day, I’m still only 19. I can figure it out, I have time.
I have faith that eventually it will all work out. I have faith in god’s plan.





