Eternatus
I shall surrender to the darkness beneath me
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They are far from perfect and often ruined my mind with mad problems and shit, we had police at home, my doors are broken, I fought them even for money cause they wanted a contribution and shit. I just really wanna disappear somewhere else and ldar all my remaining time.
But sometimes when we kinda get along I realize that Im truly, truly alone in this planet if it wasn’t for them. I would speak to myself 24/7 and be in a coma state silence for eternity without my mom and dad. They both have serious medical problems so I probably won’t have much more time with them.
My dad for example has an arteriovenous malformation in the brain, parietal lobe, he had frequent epilepsy past 35 and we had to help him to stay conscious. I saw him going in a literal blackout, biting his tongue, losing saliva and blood and speaking nonsense. He had a cerebral hemorrhage once, but luckily he never lost his cognitive functions through all of it.
Hes even pretty clever with tech but has an extremely low tolerance to be bothered or any effort besides his job.
Just to say that sometimes I forget this is all I got. The money I will have are gonna be spent to buy my solitary cave anyway. If u still have parents and feel like I do try to forgive them. U might won’t have the other day to do so.
But sometimes when we kinda get along I realize that Im truly, truly alone in this planet if it wasn’t for them. I would speak to myself 24/7 and be in a coma state silence for eternity without my mom and dad. They both have serious medical problems so I probably won’t have much more time with them.
My dad for example has an arteriovenous malformation in the brain, parietal lobe, he had frequent epilepsy past 35 and we had to help him to stay conscious. I saw him going in a literal blackout, biting his tongue, losing saliva and blood and speaking nonsense. He had a cerebral hemorrhage once, but luckily he never lost his cognitive functions through all of it.
Hes even pretty clever with tech but has an extremely low tolerance to be bothered or any effort besides his job.
Just to say that sometimes I forget this is all I got. The money I will have are gonna be spent to buy my solitary cave anyway. If u still have parents and feel like I do try to forgive them. U might won’t have the other day to do so.





