I’m opening up

[plskillme079]

I just want to end it all, at this point it’s gets worst by time, I’m getting 1 good day/3 bad days. I’m not made for this shitty life. I’m turning 25 years old and I didint accomplish anything. Social media is showing many of past school friends getting married and getting good jobs but I can because of my past traumas ( Sexual abuse at 3-5-10-11 years old), Family Domestic violence ( parents). Still a virgin, never kissed a girl, never had a relationship. It’s Ramadan and I’m not giving a fuck about it all I’m mixing Jagermeister and Vodka and it helps to evacuate it all. I don’t even believe in happiness anymore, I juste want to die at this point, the only thing that’s keeping me alive it’s the revenge that I will be taking against the people who abused me. I just need something to make me feel numb because every time I’m willing to do something that’s will make me happy, there is a voice inside my head who is stopping me I don’t know why and I can even cope with it and find a solution. There is people like us who didint even ask to be alive, I think that « god » is really unfair ( sorry for bad English) what do you guys think about that, should i rope ( my mom will be really sad) but I have to
Think about my self First.

 

[VainHireling]

Don't mix Jagermeister with anything.

 

[BornToLose]

Don't mix Jagermeister with anything.

Except Red Bull.

 

[BETAMARTYR]

If you're genuinely going to become an hero, leave a manifesto behind. NOT BECAUSE OF ER & ALL THAT but rather to leave a lasting memory. I mean, why would you want to leave without a god damn trace? Also livestream it for the lulz

 

[Nihilistic Lowlife]

Do what you have to do (in games)

 

[Billowel]

an incel pain is a great one.some of us will never see any reward in this life but the next.maybe you will someday get to be happy,no idea,but either way we have to stay alive.do you have any good copes?

 

[Alone75]

Except Red Bull.

Nah, Jägermeister neat straight from the freezer is

I know those feelings @plskillme079 some days will feel worse than others. I don't know, we know the solution to make things better, but to make it happen seems impossible!

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

Are escorts legal in your country?

 

[MaxZM98]

jesus. brutal.

what do you think contributes more to your suicidality? being sexually abused, or being an incel?

 

[JayGoptri]

I just want to end it all, at this point it’s gets worst by time, I’m getting 1 good day/3 bad days. I’m not made for this shitty life. I’m turning 25 years old and I didint accomplish anything. Social media is showing many of past school friends getting married and getting good jobs but I can because of my past traumas ( Sexual abuse at 3-5-10-11 years old), Family Domestic violence ( parents). Still a virgin, never kissed a girl, never had a relationship. It’s Ramadan and I’m not giving a fuck about it all I’m mixing Jagermeister and Vodka and it helps to evacuate it all. I don’t even believe in happiness anymore, I juste want to die at this point, the only thing that’s keeping me alive it’s the revenge that I will be taking against the people who abused me. I just need something to make me feel numb because every time I’m willing to do something that’s will make me happy, there is a voice inside my head who is stopping me I don’t know why and I can even cope with it and find a solution. There is people like us who didint even ask to be alive, I think that « god » is really unfair ( sorry for bad English) what do you guys think about that, should i rope ( my mom will be really sad) but I have to
Think about my self First.

Abandon all these desires and become as close to a Monk as possible with your copes. Otherwise, I fear you may be headed towards death fast.

 

[Lux]

25 is a rough age, one were a breaking point between it and 30 can result or in suicide or in a continuous life until older but miserable

 

[12 Years a Rotter]

over for usingyourfaceasapfpcels

 

[Shrek]

You are the CHOsen one

 

[Shrek]

Sell everything you own and give yourself one more year far away from everyone you know .You can go as a traveler around the world not caring for anything and anyone just observing the beauty nearby or doing something that you like either swimming in the sea ,hiking ,riding the bike, walking,etc .If anything doesn't changes,at least you lived your last year happier than your entire live

 

[bootadoot]

I just want to end it all, at this point it’s gets worst by time, I’m getting 1 good day/3 bad days. I’m not made for this shitty life. I’m turning 25 years old and I didint accomplish anything. Social media is showing many of past school friends getting married and getting good jobs but I can because of my past traumas ( Sexual abuse at 3-5-10-11 years old), Family Domestic violence ( parents). Still a virgin, never kissed a girl, never had a relationship. It’s Ramadan and I’m not giving a fuck about it all I’m mixing Jagermeister and Vodka and it helps to evacuate it all. I don’t even believe in happiness anymore, I juste want to die at this point, the only thing that’s keeping me alive it’s the revenge that I will be taking against the people who abused me. I just need something to make me feel numb because every time I’m willing to do something that’s will make me happy, there is a voice inside my head who is stopping me I don’t know why and I can even cope with it and find a solution. There is people like us who didint even ask to be alive, I think that « god » is really unfair ( sorry for bad English) what do you guys think about that, should i rope ( my mom will be really sad) but I have to
Think about my self First.

Damn bro, I know this sounds degenerate but try whoremaxxing, maybe it will motivate you to get a job and make money