There used to be a time where I would feel violent towards anyone who looks better than me, a time when I used to punch my walls till my knuckles were dripping with blood, cursing God's name whilst asking "why me?" But as of late all I feel is sadness and defeat, my rage has died and apathy has taken its place, whenever I get reminded about my position in life all I feel is a bitter mix of sadness and envy, my soul has been rotted away by self loathing and jealousy towards my own "fellow men" and its killing me slowly day by day.
It feels like Im too deep down the rabbithole to ever crawl out and all I can do is hope it all ends quickly.
It feels like Im too deep down the rabbithole to ever crawl out and all I can do is hope it all ends quickly.
