Leonardo Part V
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[UWSL]I'm 22, so if I'm really going to live longer than that, since I could rope at any moment, [UWSL]my plan is to improve in some aspects until I am 25. [/UWSL][/UWSL]
[UWSL]Okay, I know it's just coping, since I've done this before. I used to have crooked teeth and got them fixed, I wore glasses and now I wear lenses, I started exercising and I look much better than before, yet I'm still incel and invisible to girls. [UWSL]Even after all this, my appearance still sucks, tbh. [/UWSL][/UWSL]
Now, I'm doing NOFAP again. The reason? I don't want to kill myself after jerking off to a whore that would never look at my face in real life. Therefore, NOFAP is a good thing for me.
The problem is that I am sure I can't find a girlfriend, my mind is so messed up that I am unable to even picture myself with a girlfriend. Actually, I never could.
I think my life is already destroyed, I have no hope, my genes are trash and there is nothing I can do to change. That's how it is.
[UWSL]I want to keep going until I'm 25, if I fail, it's officially over. After that age, I will be absolutely certain that I am a failed human being, and even if I ever get a relationship in the future, it will be something superficial and doomed to a fiasco. Besides, I don't want to be a cuckold or support a woman who's only with me because she hasn't found anything better. So the best option is suicide IMO. [/UWSL]
[UWSL][UWSL]Does anyone think the same? [/UWSL][/UWSL]Or am I being too defeatist?
[UWSL]Okay, I know it's just coping, since I've done this before. I used to have crooked teeth and got them fixed, I wore glasses and now I wear lenses, I started exercising and I look much better than before, yet I'm still incel and invisible to girls. [UWSL]Even after all this, my appearance still sucks, tbh. [/UWSL][/UWSL]
Now, I'm doing NOFAP again. The reason? I don't want to kill myself after jerking off to a whore that would never look at my face in real life. Therefore, NOFAP is a good thing for me.
The problem is that I am sure I can't find a girlfriend, my mind is so messed up that I am unable to even picture myself with a girlfriend. Actually, I never could.
I think my life is already destroyed, I have no hope, my genes are trash and there is nothing I can do to change. That's how it is.
[UWSL]I want to keep going until I'm 25, if I fail, it's officially over. After that age, I will be absolutely certain that I am a failed human being, and even if I ever get a relationship in the future, it will be something superficial and doomed to a fiasco. Besides, I don't want to be a cuckold or support a woman who's only with me because she hasn't found anything better. So the best option is suicide IMO. [/UWSL]
[UWSL][UWSL]Does anyone think the same? [/UWSL][/UWSL]Or am I being too defeatist?