VitaminS
For Imperishable glory of the Kingdom of Heaven...
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- Feb 13, 2023
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Idk I am loosing it. I am loosing the strength, the will to live. I can not cope for any longer. I have not showered in months, I have not brushed my teeth in months, and I have barely eaten nor drank. Some mornings I can not even get out of bed! This has been going on for years, I have periods like this where the copium runs low and the weight becomes too heavy to carry for even a second longer. I have always been able to get myself out of that pit but right now it has just hit me harder then I can take. For years I have wanted to die but I have always have thought I could triumph over that feeling. What happened to me? I still remember the kid who was quiet, shy and loved to draw and just wanted to have fun just wanted to create. I was so creative. They beat everything good out of me. I did nothing and they beat me down. I am a shell of myself. Physical strength can not compensate for my weak and crippled mind. They took everything from me this world has taken everything from me. I hope I do not wake up. I am too much of a coward to do anything to myself. I hope I will still be cowardly in the future.