Hello brother what can I do for you? We can always talk.
OCD has destroyed my life
Its an awful mental illness and ive never been treated nor diagnoses but I show the symptoms clearly. Its hard, really hard.
What are some of your worst intrusive thoughts? I dont think about murdering but mostly the things ive described. I am too low T to obsess over killing. Its just these stupid irrational things I want to get out of my mind.
mine too. ive had it since I was born
That I will lose everyone who cares about me and if I don't listen to these fucking retarded compulsions everything is destroyed and I will get NOTHING good in life
Or the kind of thoughts such as do that or someone you care about will die
Exactly
Relatable. During intrusive thoughts my I stsrt to also heavily breathe. I struggle with breathing. It is something I have no control over.
I dont drink coffee.
I used to close a browser that I was using then open it and close it again otherwise someone I care about will get cancer etc.
ur giving urself side quests
Gaming with OCD is a nightmare. Jump 3 times, do that or kill yourself in game or your parents will die.
Every decision I have in life I have to think about in detail
Brutal
Same. I feel like a schizophrenic. Its a torture.
what soothes me after suffering from intrusive thoughts is that my thoughts are not the real me. It kind of works but not fully. Any advice i've received online on how to make it a little better is helpful. Also watching porn makes my OCD 3 times worse believe me. I must quit or it just gets worse.
Good advice. I want to stop watching it so much as well.
do you also notice after cooming your intrusive thoughts get worse and also happen much more often or is it just me ?
I don't coom that much so I'm not really sure. My OCD is always complete hell every single day though.
bro i tried getting into the witcher 3 and Skyrim but I always panic when I see the amount of quests and the fact you have to manage gear, upgrade and do all of this stuff overwhelms me. It makes me sweat and I just quit playing the game. Or getting stuck on a level and then questioning my gaming skills and feeling bad about myself.
This is why I avoid RPG's. They are literally unplayable for me. Most people don't realise how awesome it must be to be able to play a video game and genuinely have fun without having to do stupid bullshit every second like walk back in the game, have items in specific positions, killing enemies in certain orders, and having every small fucking thing completely perfect.
RPGs, MMO's and games where you have too many things to do and manage like Hearts of Iron are nightmare for me. Games without a HUD where you're not being shown where you must go are also a nightmare for me. Finding out where you have to go and exploring is an instant turn off for me when I'm gaming.
I would love to play a game where I have more freedom but my OCD just hates me having fun
Same, also how do you deal with puzzles in games? I over analyze everything which makes me do retarded shit.
I commonly feel like repeating the puzzles so I avoid them. I'll end up wasting so much time doing one part over and over.
Happens to me too. I watch tutorials and get over with because its too stressful for me to figure out and most of the times im stuck for over 30 mins.
