It's Over Not even my ND friend group could handle me

[nzth]

I probably will never have real friends, and i certainly will never experience real human connection as it is supossed to be.​

I grew up with these main 2 friends from 5th grade to my 1st year of college. Jose and Kyrie, yeah, i actually thought i could befriend a foid (you could probably say she was my oneitis, now i just straight up hate her.)​

Nerdy and ND, sharing interests and going out just the 3 of us, i actually thought we would be together forever, but in the end i realized my friend Jose was just another guy, kinda nerdy and ND yeah, but of course if a used foid gives him the minimal attention he forgets about everything his weird childhood friend did for him.

As for her, well, i did what i had to do, i confessed, and she took it as straight up harassment, i crashed out, basically cursed her and her way of making me feel, and, nothing, just a block. block block block

What makes me even more mad about the whole thing is that Jose too straight up blocked me, no words, no last call NO NOTHING.​

HE KNEW I WAS AT THE ABSOLUTE WORST POINT OF MY LIFE, HE KNEW THAT I WAS THINKING ABOUT KILLING MYSELF, AND STILL. no call, no text, no nothing, yeah, me being slightly mean to a foid was a reason to abandon me at the worst point of my life.​

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For those of you wondering, no, Jose and Kyrie were not dating, Jose had a gf.
And yes, i was naive thinking that a foid that has seen me all her life as lesser than human, as a "friend", as nothing... how could i think that she could possibly see me as a possible boyfriend.

I was just so in need of something, i am, i am in need of human connection, i do need love, but it seems that society, even that little part of society wich i share some aspects, has deemed me as lesser that human, has made me miserable, and also made me feel bad about feeling bad. isn't that crazy?​

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IN THE END, I THINK THERE ARE NO REAL FRIENDS FOR ME AT LEAST​

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NO ONE AND NOTHING WILL MAKE ME FEEL CONNECTED WITH ANOTHER HUMAN BEING, SIMPLY BECAUSE I AM SO DAMAGED BY THEM THAT I CAN'T FEEL LOVE FOR THEM.​

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I AM TIRED OF ACTING AS IF I AM NOT WHO I AM, I GUES I SHOULD JUST ACT UPON ALL OF THIS

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[WizardInTraining]

Incels with friends do tend to get used and abandoned by them

 

[nzth]

Incels with friends do tend to get used and abandoned by them

it's crazy to me that even though they knew how lonely and depressed i was, they straight up abandoned me

 

[nihilum]

I don't even have friends.

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

Incels with friends do tend to get used and abandoned by them

Real.

 

[nihilist chud]

atleast u had friends

 

[AutistKing]

I probably will never have real friends, and i certainly will never experience real human connection as it is supossed to be.​

I grew up with these main 2 friends from 5th grade to my 1st year of college. Jose and Kyrie, yeah, i actually thought i could befriend a foid (you could probably say she was my oneitis, now i just straight up hate her.)​

Nerdy and ND, sharing interests and going out just the 3 of us, i actually thought we would be together forever, but in the end i realized my friend Jose was just another guy, kinda nerdy and ND yeah, but of course if a used foid gives him the minimal attention he forgets about everything his weird childhood friend did for him.​

​

As for her, well, i did what i had to do, i confessed, and she took it as straight up harassment, i crashed out, basically cursed her and her way of making me feel, and, nothing, just a block. block block block​

​

What makes me even more mad about the whole thing is that Jose too straight up blocked me, no words, no last call NO NOTHING.​

HE KNEW I WAS AT THE ABSOLUTE WORST POINT OF MY LIFE, HE KNEW THAT I WAS THINKING ABOUT KILLING MYSELF, AND STILL. no call, no text, no nothing, yeah, me being slightly mean to a foid was a reason to abandon me at the worst point of my life.​

​

For those of you wondering, no, Jose and Kyrie were not dating, Jose had a gf.​

And yes, i was naive thinking that a foid that has seen me all her life as lesser than human, as a "friend", as nothing... how could i think that she could possibly see me as a possible boyfriend.​

​

I was just so in need of something, i am, i am in need of human connection, i do need love, but it seems that society, even that little part of society wich i share some aspects, has deemed me as lesser that human, has made me miserable, and also made me feel bad about feeling bad. isn't that crazy?​

​

IN THE END, I THINK THERE ARE NO REAL FRIENDS FOR ME AT LEAST​

​

NO ONE AND NOTHING WILL MAKE ME FEEL CONNECTED WITH ANOTHER HUMAN BEING, SIMPLY BECAUSE I AM SO DAMAGED BY THEM THAT I CAN'T FEEL LOVE FOR THEM.​

​

I AM TIRED OF ACTING AS IF I AM NOT WHO I AM, I GUES I SHOULD JUST ACT UPON ALL OF THIS​

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You’re better off without his presence.

Was there ever a bond?

 

[nzth]

You’re better off without his presence.

Was there ever a bond?

for me there was, at least i liked them somewhat, and i thought they did like me too