I Shot myself in the under the chin, ended up surving and now my life is worse than ever

[johanthedeathnic]

Hi, its me, on December 4th i attemepted suicide via shotgun under my chin. For fucks sakes i couldn't handle it anymore, being a deathnic seeing women invade our spaces i decided i didn't want to be here anymore, so i took the cowardly way and decided to shoot myself. I did it in the basement and before i Pulled the trigger I thought to myself i deserved a much more painful death than this due to being such a pathetic person. Ironically i survived and ended up completely exploding my face losing my teeth jaw and nose. The photos below is after the reconstruction surgery and how i looked before i shot myself to see how truly subhuman ive become., im so fucking ugly now my romantic life was already ruined and now its even worse why COULDNT I HAVE JUST FUCKING DIED WHY AM I FORCED TO PARTIPCATE IN THIS LIFE I DIDNT ASK TO BE HERE I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. Anyways ive been in the hospital now for 67 days i should get out in around a month. I dont know what to do, and im sorry to everyone i worried.

I dont know how to insert url images so here View: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qIn2iR_a7N02A-x5q-c3WuBiSgz_3Qs3Sa49dE4FCoI/edit?usp=sharing

 

[Goofygoober007]

Hi, its me, on December 4th i attemepted suicide via shotgun under my chin. For fucks sakes i couldn't handle it anymore, being a deathnic seeing women invade our spaces i decided i didn't want to be here anymore, so i took the cowardly way and decided to shoot myself. I did it in the basement and before i Pulled the trigger I thought to myself i deserved a much more painful death than this due to being such a pathetic person. Ironically i survived and ended up completely exploding my face losing my teeth jaw and nose. The photos below is after the reconstruction surgery and how i looked before i shot myself to see how truly subhuman ive become., im so fucking ugly now my romantic life was already ruined and now its even worse why COULDNT I HAVE JUST FUCKING DIED WHY AM I FORCED TO PARTIPCATE IN THIS LIFE I DIDNT ASK TO BE HERE I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. Anyways ive been in the hospital now for 67 days i should get out in around a month. I dont know what to do, and im sorry to everyone i worried.

I dont know how to insert url images so here View: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qIn2iR_a7N02A-x5q-c3WuBiSgz_3Qs3Sa49dE4FCoI/edit?usp=sharing

So decided doing it the half ass method would make your life better? you should never done it if you weren't prepared to die.

 

[Wrath]

broootal

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

 

[lowz1r]

Really sorry about that man. Please just try to cope the best you can, it's really all we can do.

 

[Karlicel]

Hi, its me, on December 4th i attemepted suicide via shotgun under my chin. For fucks sakes i couldn't handle it anymore, being a deathnic seeing women invade our spaces i decided i didn't want to be here anymore, so i took the cowardly way and decided to shoot myself. I did it in the basement and before i Pulled the trigger I thought to myself i deserved a much more painful death than this due to being such a pathetic person. Ironically i survived and ended up completely exploding my face losing my teeth jaw and nose. The photos below is after the reconstruction surgery and how i looked before i shot myself to see how truly subhuman ive become., im so fucking ugly now my romantic life was already ruined and now its even worse why COULDNT I HAVE JUST FUCKING DIED WHY AM I FORCED TO PARTIPCATE IN THIS LIFE I DIDNT ASK TO BE HERE I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. Anyways ive been in the hospital now for 67 days i should get out in around a month. I dont know what to do, and im sorry to everyone i worried.

I dont know how to insert url images so here View: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qIn2iR_a7N02A-x5q-c3WuBiSgz_3Qs3Sa49dE4FCoI/edit?usp=sharing

 

[outerdarkness]

I’m sorry, I’ve tried and screwed up, but nothing like that.

 

[Todd Thundercock]

 

[Hoodpreet]

being a deathnic seeing women invade our spaces i decided i didn't want to be here anymore

Brutally relatable. Being sexless and isolated is one thing (and bad enough), but watching our copes and last bastions slip away from our grasp feels like the walls fucking closing in. It’s existentially dreadful, all of it.

I’m really sorry this happened to you. This is fucking awful. I hate how we aren’t even guaranteed a peaceful way out in this life

 

[Karlicel]

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holy fuck i am so sorry.
its over.
that is the reason i would never choose a trauma related incident for suicide.
why didnt you use a poison or medication?

 

[Hoodpreet]

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Fucking brutal holy shit. That’s super unfortunate

 

[Hoodpreet]

why didnt you use a poison or medication?

Those kill slowly and painfully while a gunshot is meant to kill instantly. Though precision of course matters

 

[4sez]

Damn.

 

[Hoodpreet]

If you want to avoid making the same mistake it should direct towards the fucking brain not upwards towards the jaw. Shit kinda pisses me off because hes not ugly he wanted to make himself ugly.

I know when Eric Harris used a shotgun to commit suicide he put it in his mouth facing upward rather than under the chin. I guess if I end up choosing this way out I should do the same

 

[Goofygoober007]

I know when Eric Harris used a shotgun to commit suicide he put it in his mouth facing upward rather than under the chin. I guess if I end up choosing this way out I should do the same

Fuck im not trying to be mean but I dont get why he would want to put himself in such a utterly fucked situation. Thats what pisses me off.


He really did it though fuck me man. Sorry bro that stuff is that rough.

 

[Hoodpreet]

If you want to avoid making the same mistake it should direct towards the fucking brain not upwards towards the jaw. Shit kinda pisses me off because hes not ugly he wanted to make himself ugly. I know not to make that mistake because I know theres a vital fucking organ in my skull in when and when a bunch of buck shot goes through it you can no longer live.

I don’t think he attempted cause of looks/inceldom. Look at his other posts. It appears he was suicidal for a long time, before he even got BP’d. I think that’s the case with most members here who rope or attempt it.

Inceldom alone won’t make someone kill themselves. It’s more like death by a thousand cuts, sexlessness being just one of said cuts

 

[Todd Thundercock]

The target is the brain stem. Put the barrel in your mouth for best stability, and aim at ~45 degree angle to the back crown of your head. The instant you disconnect anything in that area, you're gone and won't feel a thing.

The brain is much smaller than most realize and is surprisingly resilient. The last thing you want to do is only shoot your face off because you'll only die slowly bleeding to death.

 

[Sir Silentium]

That's horrible man. There was a similar post on WPD years ago, he ended up survivng completely deformed.

 

[Goofygoober007]

I don’t think he attempted cause of looks/inceldom. Look at his other posts. It appears he was suicidal for a long time, before he even got BP’d. I think that’s the case with most members here who rope or attempt it.

Inceldom alone won’t make someone with an otherwise good life kill themselves. It’s morelike death by a thousand cuts, sexlessness being just one of said cuts

Well I guess hes motivation for me really research this through before I do it.

 

[Goofygoober007]

Hi, its me, on December 4th i attemepted suicide via shotgun under my chin. For fucks sakes i couldn't handle it anymore, being a deathnic seeing women invade our spaces i decided i didn't want to be here anymore, so i took the cowardly way and decided to shoot myself. I did it in the basement and before i Pulled the trigger I thought to myself i deserved a much more painful death than this due to being such a pathetic person. Ironically i survived and ended up completely exploding my face losing my teeth jaw and nose. The photos below is after the reconstruction surgery and how i looked before i shot myself to see how truly subhuman ive become., im so fucking ugly now my romantic life was already ruined and now its even worse why COULDNT I HAVE JUST FUCKING DIED WHY AM I FORCED TO PARTIPCATE IN THIS LIFE I DIDNT ASK TO BE HERE I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. Anyways ive been in the hospital now for 67 days i should get out in around a month. I dont know what to do, and im sorry to everyone i worried.

I dont know how to insert url images so here View: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qIn2iR_a7N02A-x5q-c3WuBiSgz_3Qs3Sa49dE4FCoI/edit?usp=sharing

Im sorry man for sounding so cold hearted im not the best in the empathy department its just the way i am man i dont hate you for what you did just frustrated with you is all. I hope you find some light or happiness.

 

[Caichan]

Damn that’s literally horrible bro

 

[ItsOverMan]

I'm sorry. Stay strong. I prayed for you.

 

[Itsoverm8]

Brutal! I least now you can disabilitymaxx I guess

 

[ThePornographer]

Damn bro...

Another proof self deleting isn't the way.

Good luck man, i hope you get to find some wisdom in your new path of life.

 

[viva_aristo]

hoping the best.

 

[MuhDigitalFootprint]

looksmaxxed

 

[Itsoverm8]

Damn bro...

Another proof self deleting isn't the way.

Good luck man, i hope you get to find some wisdom in your new path of life.

Well if your gonna rope do it right , or else life is just gonna be even worse

 

[Barlog]

Brutal

 

[johanthedeathnic]

holy fuck i am so sorry.
its over.
that is the reason i would never choose a trauma related incident for suicide.
why didnt you use a poison or medication?

I've tried to overdose on medication before ended up just vommiting it all out. i just wanted a quick and painless death thats why i went the shotgun route. Also thank you bro

 

[johanthedeathnic]

I'm sorry. Stay strong. I prayed for you.

thank you

 

[johanthedeathnic]

Im sorry man for sounding so cold hearted im not the best in the empathy department its just the way i am man i dont hate you for what you did just frustrated with you is all. I hope you find some light or happiness.

thank you, i realized in retrospect i shoulve just endured lifes struggles like how everyone else does. I took the cowardly way out and now im paying for it

 

[Hoodpreet]

@Itsoverm8

Given his age I assume he discovered the BP in 2022 at earliest. 4 years isn’t someone’s “entire life.” You are right though that looks affect every aspect of life; that doesn’t necessarily mean inceldom made him kill himself. Trauma builds up over time from the various experiences and negative reinforcement loops you deal with as a man in your formative years, and there comes a point where even if your life could fully turn around tomorrow, the damage has already been done

 

[rcnfive]

im sorry man. this is why i can't do guns. fentanyl or drugs only

 

[Hoodpreet]

thank you, i realized in retrospect i shoulve just endured lifes struggles like how everyone else does. I took the cowardly way out and now im paying for it

You didn’t take the coward’s way out. Don’t beat yourself up or shame yourself over your actions. Society chewed you up and spat you back out, just as it did to the rest of us, and it unfortunately pushed you to a point where you saw no way out except doing what you did.

What happened to you was unfortunate, but you shouldn’t blame yourself for it. You wouldn’t have been suicidal had everything gone right

 

[Hoodpreet]

thank you, i realized in retrospect i shoulve just endured lifes struggles like how everyone else does. I took the cowardly way out and now im paying for it

Society treating men like us as disposable and hyper-agentic is a huge part of why I assume you were pushed to doing what you did. A world that treats us like we don’t matter has no right to shame us for trying to opt out of their rigged game. Anyone who calls you a “coward” instead of showing empathy is bitch-made through and through

 

[johanthedeathnic]

You didn’t take the coward’s way out. Don’t beat yourself up or shame yourself over your actions. Society chewed you up and spat you back out, just as it did to the rest of us, and it unfortunately pushed you to a point where you saw no way out except doing what you did.

What happened to you was unfortunate, but you shouldn’t blame yourself for it. You wouldn’t have been suicidal had everything gone right

Thank you for the Reassurance, you're a good person. I don't know what to do at this point I could never thought id be at a lower spot than the night of the suicide attempt but here I am. Maybe ill just live a life of seclusion unironically just hiding in my parents basement until i die,

 

[Hoodpreet]

dumb nigger

Real PoS for this. FFS what’s the point of using a space like this if you’re just going to shame other men in the same position you allegedly share?

His failed suicide attempt wouldn’t even have occurred in the first place if external factors didn’t push him to this point

 

[psychotic_cock69]

Real PoS for this. FFS what’s the point of using a space like this if you’re just going to shame other men in the same position you allegedly share?

His failed suicide attempt wouldn’t even have occurred in the first place if external factors didn’t push him to this point

our lives ain't worth it anyways, if you gonna kill yourselves why not just do it properly. but nigger being nigger.

 

[psychotic_cock69]

Real PoS for this. FFS what’s the point of using a space like this if you’re just going to shame other men in the same position you allegedly share?

His failed suicide attempt wouldn’t even have occurred in the first place if external factors didn’t push him to this point

he should do it again, or ask for euthanasia and shit, provide how ugly we are, we should ask foid docs for euthanasia, they will give it right away

 

[Hoodpreet]

our lives ain't worth it anyways, if you gonna kill yourselves why not just do it properly. but nigger being nigger.

What is “properly?” SN etc. kill slowly and painfully; the point of using a gun is that it has the highest potential to kill you instantly. Him using a gun was for the specific purpose of avoiding a failed/slow attempt.

Perhaps he didn’t aim it right, but again, hands can slip due to the pressure of being in the moment. Or perhaps he got really drunk the day of his attempt and did it on impulse (as is common).

The point is this is very often the end to incel life if you don’t ascend and find normalization, or some other purpose in life. What happened to him could very well happen to you one day too

 

[Xul]

Holy shit, its not joevER
If you are serious about it then you use a magnum on your temple pointed diagonally to the back

 

[psychotic_cock69]

What is “properly?” SN etc. kill slowly and painfully; the point of using a gun is that it has the highest potential to kill you instantly. Him using a gun was for the specific purpose of avoiding a failed attempt.

Perhaps he didn’t aim it right, but again, hands can slip due to the pressure of being in the moment. Or perhaps he got really drunk the day of his attempt and did it on impulse (as is common).

The point is this is very often the end to incel life if you don’t ascend and find normalization, or some other purpose in life. What happened to him could very well happen to you one day too

i hope i kill myself, and when i do. ill do it properly. leaving no room for mistake

 

[shitskinmogger88]

Holy shit man im genuinely sorry for you suicide is never the option i wish you all the best dude im sorry

 

[johanthedeathnic]

Holy shit man im genuinely sorry for you suicide is never the option i wish you all the best dude im sorry

thank you, i shouldve listened to everyone

 

[shitskinmogger88]

thank you, i shouldve listened to everyone

If u dont mind me asking, are u planning to do it again (with assistance maybe) If so man, i hope u dont i wish u all the best fr keep ur head up, suicide is never a option u have my blessing bro

 

[Akedia]

Hi, its me, on December 4th i attemepted suicide via shotgun under my chin. For fucks sakes i couldn't handle it anymore, being a deathnic seeing women invade our spaces i decided i didn't want to be here anymore, so i took the cowardly way and decided to shoot myself. I did it in the basement and before i Pulled the trigger I thought to myself i deserved a much more painful death than this due to being such a pathetic person. Ironically i survived and ended up completely exploding my face losing my teeth jaw and nose. The photos below is after the reconstruction surgery and how i looked before i shot myself to see how truly subhuman ive become., im so fucking ugly now my romantic life was already ruined and now its even worse why COULDNT I HAVE JUST FUCKING DIED WHY AM I FORCED TO PARTIPCATE IN THIS LIFE I DIDNT ASK TO BE HERE I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. Anyways ive been in the hospital now for 67 days i should get out in around a month. I dont know what to do, and im sorry to everyone i worried.

I dont know how to insert url images so here View: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qIn2iR_a7N02A-x5q-c3WuBiSgz_3Qs3Sa49dE4FCoI/edit?usp=sharing

Wasn’t expecting that pic, fuckk I’m so sorry bro

 

[johanthedeathnic]

If u dont mind me asking, are u planning to do it again (with assistance maybe) If so man, i hope u dont i wish u all the best fr keep ur head up, suicide is never a option u have my blessing bro

I will most likely try again with a lethal dose of fentanyl, but its complicated because once they're done with surgeries ill be discharged and transferred to a psychiatric hospital, where ill be getting "help" so we'll see how that works out. Ultimately, there's no amount of help that can fix my face so realistically ill go for a successful suicide.

 

[Wagnercel]

 

[autisticsoy]

Thats brutal man I hope you managed

 

[shitskinmogger88]

I will most likely try again with a lethal dose of fentanyl, but its complicated because once they're done with surgeries ill be discharged and transferred to a psychiatric hospital, where ill be getting "help" so we'll see how that works out. Ultimately, there's no amount of help that can fix my face so realistically ill go for a successful suicide.

Im so sorry man i hope you change your mind but in the end its your choice, you have my prayers bro