I've been thinking that I no longer want to experience hope in life regarding the things I want from the future. I can pursue good things, but I give up 'hope'. Hope can make a person feel like an idiot; it is a bait that dangles in front of the eyes and is caught again and again. Bait is used to trick the fish into catching the hook. It feels good for a while, but then that feeling goes away and the necessary replacement with something concrete doesn't happen; hope is a promise that nevertheless delegates the responsibility o fulfillment somewhere else. A couple of days ago I threw my old wireless headphones in the electronic waste. They had been used for a couple of years and I read that even without charging the battery can run out in that time. In addition, the battery can be used up by charging. After all, this is also some kind of figure of speech, that the battery becomes unusable in any case; pumped new power into it or not. Feeding a person with hope is also something like this, where it is not enough, but giving power can even consume more when those components are not renewed from it.
