Deta97
Suicidal Alchemist and Dreamer
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- Joined
- May 31, 2021
- Posts
- 945
Hi, nice to meet you. I came after IWH was banned. I was reluctant and was kinda anxious at the thought of having joined, only based on what I’ve heard. But I guess here I am.
I’m not even sure how to go about this, but I find myself becoming more and more resentful about everything. Especially work. I’m unable to really connect with anyone. And the majority of coworkers and even managers are either cold or hostile towards me. I don’t know what I’ve done, but for the most part, it’s mostly females. They treat me as though I’ve been the reason why their dads left, or like I’ve killed their relatives or some shit. I try my hardest to figure out why they’re like this towards me? It’s been like that pretty much all my life, though it’s gotten bad since highschool.
Only people they seem to treat human are either tall, attractive people, or women. Pretty much whatever fits in their clique. Do they sense something wrong with me? No! That can’t be it. I may have issues, like anger issues, but I have that under control, and I try being as polite as can be. I help people as best as I can. Not to say that I’m a nice guy like some would say, I just do whatever it takes to avoid conflict. My race? Doubt it, they treat other black guys decently. I guess it may come down to my physical features, or whatever flaw I can do very little to help, granted I can. I don’t know where I’m going with this anymore, I’m becoming incoherent and I’m not good at talking about myself in detail. I’ll probably post more, after I lurk a little more.
I’m not even sure how to go about this, but I find myself becoming more and more resentful about everything. Especially work. I’m unable to really connect with anyone. And the majority of coworkers and even managers are either cold or hostile towards me. I don’t know what I’ve done, but for the most part, it’s mostly females. They treat me as though I’ve been the reason why their dads left, or like I’ve killed their relatives or some shit. I try my hardest to figure out why they’re like this towards me? It’s been like that pretty much all my life, though it’s gotten bad since highschool.
Only people they seem to treat human are either tall, attractive people, or women. Pretty much whatever fits in their clique. Do they sense something wrong with me? No! That can’t be it. I may have issues, like anger issues, but I have that under control, and I try being as polite as can be. I help people as best as I can. Not to say that I’m a nice guy like some would say, I just do whatever it takes to avoid conflict. My race? Doubt it, they treat other black guys decently. I guess it may come down to my physical features, or whatever flaw I can do very little to help, granted I can. I don’t know where I’m going with this anymore, I’m becoming incoherent and I’m not good at talking about myself in detail. I’ll probably post more, after I lurk a little more.