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This is fucking insanity, but this is my life now. All my life I've been trying various approaches to making friends, but it all failed. You can't pull the "umm, just go outside, try a hobby or something, inkel" excuse on me, because I came as far as attending lectures I didn't give shit about or trying out churches and their social groups despite not being religious (well, I have my own religious/spiritual views that'd get me stoned in a conservative church). I've actually put in insane effort at studying the Bible just to impress Bible study people and hopefully make friends, but nah.
Anyway, as I said, it all failed and I more or less gave up. I kinda consider trying out Bumble BFF and maybe Instagram maxxing as my final line of cope, but now I'm exhausted, it seems like all normies are insane evil people (I "made friends" with people who turned out to be pedos and such) and even they don't want to be around me.
Now I focus on finishing my studies, getting some source of income and my hobbies (I want to do YouTube videos for fun, my only problem is getting bullied, but I genuinely consider just blocking out all comments and doing it purely for myself, only seeing the "likes" count for some dopamine boost). But oh no no, my parents won't allow me to cope in peace. They constantly allude to wanting grandchildren, they want me to exploit the Ukrainian immigrants in Poland (they're not any less bitchy than Polish foids, in fact, they seem weirdly aggressive so far, and I don't want to exploit anyone's bad material situation) etc. etc. Ironically I'm only interested in making friends now, a gf is something I'd hunt for after establishing a social circle, but my parents are coomers.
To get them off my back I plan to pretend to go to social events with made-up friends from the internet or people from my uni. I wish I could do that, but I'm not invited to anything and the open events suck, I live in a big city and there's genuinely nothing to do.
There's no single active Brony group, no single active group within the giant spectrum of Neo-Paganism, the only book clubs are targeted at elderly or children, my other interests are purely academic and lectures (if any interesting open lectures even take place) aren't a good place to make friends etc. etc.
My plan is to tell my parents that I go meet someone (preferably a foid) and instead ride a bus and go to a park somewhere far away from my home. I do daily walks/jogs mixed with exercise every day in a park near me anyway, I can do the same in a park somewhere farther and just return home after a while and lie about having social life to get them off my back. It's a shitty band-aid, but at least it's something. I need to get them off my back. I avoid spending time at home anyway, it's better to lurk from my phone in a park than to have them kvetching about everything over my head.
This is fucking insanity, but this is my life now. All my life I've been trying various approaches to making friends, but it all failed. You can't pull the "umm, just go outside, try a hobby or something, inkel" excuse on me, because I came as far as attending lectures I didn't give shit about or trying out churches and their social groups despite not being religious (well, I have my own religious/spiritual views that'd get me stoned in a conservative church). I've actually put in insane effort at studying the Bible just to impress Bible study people and hopefully make friends, but nah.
Anyway, as I said, it all failed and I more or less gave up. I kinda consider trying out Bumble BFF and maybe Instagram maxxing as my final line of cope, but now I'm exhausted, it seems like all normies are insane evil people (I "made friends" with people who turned out to be pedos and such) and even they don't want to be around me.
Now I focus on finishing my studies, getting some source of income and my hobbies (I want to do YouTube videos for fun, my only problem is getting bullied, but I genuinely consider just blocking out all comments and doing it purely for myself, only seeing the "likes" count for some dopamine boost). But oh no no, my parents won't allow me to cope in peace. They constantly allude to wanting grandchildren, they want me to exploit the Ukrainian immigrants in Poland (they're not any less bitchy than Polish foids, in fact, they seem weirdly aggressive so far, and I don't want to exploit anyone's bad material situation) etc. etc. Ironically I'm only interested in making friends now, a gf is something I'd hunt for after establishing a social circle, but my parents are coomers.
To get them off my back I plan to pretend to go to social events with made-up friends from the internet or people from my uni. I wish I could do that, but I'm not invited to anything and the open events suck, I live in a big city and there's genuinely nothing to do.
There's no single active Brony group, no single active group within the giant spectrum of Neo-Paganism, the only book clubs are targeted at elderly or children, my other interests are purely academic and lectures (if any interesting open lectures even take place) aren't a good place to make friends etc. etc.My plan is to tell my parents that I go meet someone (preferably a foid) and instead ride a bus and go to a park somewhere far away from my home. I do daily walks/jogs mixed with exercise every day in a park near me anyway, I can do the same in a park somewhere farther and just return home after a while and lie about having social life to get them off my back. It's a shitty band-aid, but at least it's something. I need to get them off my back. I avoid spending time at home anyway, it's better to lurk from my phone in a park than to have them kvetching about everything over my head.
