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So i was doing some research and looking for jobs online when that one song from GRITS came on autoplay and i instantly become flooded with emotions and nostalgia.
I remembered me being a carefree and somewhat lost child wondering what the future will hold and what will become of me, before i shake it off and go back to whatever i was doing at the time.
I remember watching the first snow fall and me not being able to wait to go outside and play in the snow.
I remember one of the greatest years ever of 2007, there was so much hope that things would pick up from here, only to be meet with one of the not so great moments of the 2000's: 2008 economic crash.
I remember everyone being a lot more innocent and pure, even on the internet.
I remember the internet in general not being flooded by narcissistic normies, clickbait and retardation.
I remember seeing the computer and video games for the first time and being fascinated by them, to the point where i used to recreate what i saw on them in real life(very autistic i know). Visiting my cousins was one of my favourite things to do because of the games they had on the computer, Counter Strike 1.6 in particular.
I remember "All your base are belong to us" and the "This is Sparta" remixes.
Remember 2000's Youtube and when it was about you? Remember the memes that were born during that time? Remember MSN messenger?
Most of my life from 2015 and onwards has been spent in misery and sadness, high school in particular was a very dark time for me and i was close to ending it right there. Every year the world keeps digging itself deeper into shit, and every year i lose will to live more and more. I don't even bother to go outside on the summer time, let alone winter now because i just think to myself: "What's the point, why bother?" I have no motivation to do anything and im living life on spectator mode nowadays. I can't even imagine how hellish it's going to be 20 years from now for example.
Why is the world like this? If there is something good that comes out now it's usually overshadowed by the myriad of things that aren't.
My self esteem is shattered but the youth and childhood dreams that are still inside me are wishing for something more, something not capable of being achieved..
Perhaps this is all in my mind, perhaps 2007 might have been the worst year in reality, but God damn what i wouldn't give to be a child and get to re-experience all the mentioned stuff again .
"It's time like these that make me say, lord if you see me please come my way" -GRITS - My Life Be Like
"You miss the things you hated long ago" -Pulse Ultra - Build Your Cages
"Destroy the world that we took so long to make" -BUSH - The People That We Love
I remembered me being a carefree and somewhat lost child wondering what the future will hold and what will become of me, before i shake it off and go back to whatever i was doing at the time.
I remember watching the first snow fall and me not being able to wait to go outside and play in the snow.
I remember one of the greatest years ever of 2007, there was so much hope that things would pick up from here, only to be meet with one of the not so great moments of the 2000's: 2008 economic crash.
I remember everyone being a lot more innocent and pure, even on the internet.
I remember the internet in general not being flooded by narcissistic normies, clickbait and retardation.
I remember seeing the computer and video games for the first time and being fascinated by them, to the point where i used to recreate what i saw on them in real life(very autistic i know). Visiting my cousins was one of my favourite things to do because of the games they had on the computer, Counter Strike 1.6 in particular.
I remember "All your base are belong to us" and the "This is Sparta" remixes.
Remember 2000's Youtube and when it was about you? Remember the memes that were born during that time? Remember MSN messenger?
Most of my life from 2015 and onwards has been spent in misery and sadness, high school in particular was a very dark time for me and i was close to ending it right there. Every year the world keeps digging itself deeper into shit, and every year i lose will to live more and more. I don't even bother to go outside on the summer time, let alone winter now because i just think to myself: "What's the point, why bother?" I have no motivation to do anything and im living life on spectator mode nowadays. I can't even imagine how hellish it's going to be 20 years from now for example.
Why is the world like this? If there is something good that comes out now it's usually overshadowed by the myriad of things that aren't.
My self esteem is shattered but the youth and childhood dreams that are still inside me are wishing for something more, something not capable of being achieved..
Perhaps this is all in my mind, perhaps 2007 might have been the worst year in reality, but God damn what i wouldn't give to be a child and get to re-experience all the mentioned stuff again .
"It's time like these that make me say, lord if you see me please come my way" -GRITS - My Life Be Like
"You miss the things you hated long ago" -Pulse Ultra - Build Your Cages
"Destroy the world that we took so long to make" -BUSH - The People That We Love