Serious I Made A "Death Pact" With Myself With Respect To Wealthmaxxing (Poll: How Many Of You Have Done Something Similar?)

[BlkPillPres]

At a certain point around 2019 I had reached my limit of how much I was willing to tolerate my shitty existence, I had already thought about killing myself before but this time I was serious.

Actually I think "serious" is the wrong word to describe my state of mind then and now, it was more like I had finally accepted it, the thought of dying was no longer filled with a sense of fear or dispear (there was no seriousness at all). I felt calm, I felt at peace about it, like a weight was off my chest, but I wasn't just going to off myself if I had a chance at an enjoyable life.

So I made a pact with myself with respect to wealthmaxxing:
If I am not wealthmaxxed by the age of 30 I plan on killing myself

By wealthmaxxed I mean being able to live on my own, pay all of my bills and expenses, etc through means of passive income streams that are automatic or semi-automatic, allowing me to live a life of worry free leisure and pleasure, with minimal effort required.

I began to take steps and put a lot of effort towards getting to that goal, trying many things in many different fields. How close or far I am away from that goal, I would never say until I get to the end of either road (complete success or complete failure). I don't want to "jinx" it, also its just a good practice to not talk about the details of your financial pursuits or business while they are "in the works"

The time for boasting comes after you make it, not while you are in the process of doing it lol

Maybe one day I'll be making that "farewell" thread on this forum



I know, I know - "But there's no guarantee you'll make it after all of that effort".

Yeah, chances are slim as hell, I came to terms with that a while now, if I fail I kill myself, if I succeed I'll no longer feel like dying because my life will be amazing now, win win.

I always find it weird how so many incels on this forum don't see this as the perfect opportunity, all of us are always talking about how much we want to die and how tired we are of life

So why is it I never see any incels talking about this "deadline" as if its a common thing, why is it I've never heard another incel talk about something similar to the "pact" I mention in this thread

If you know you want to die, and you hate your life, isn't it common sense to structure your life around the goal of changing it for the better, in such a manner that failure means death

I can't imagine another 10 years as my regular self who has to go to work everyday, be horny as fuck all his life, slaving away all the hours, scarfing down fast food and putting on weight like crazy because I don't feel like I have enough time to cook, etc.

Life as a modern day average human just feels rushed, it feels like its all moving so fast, and that experience feels 100 times worse when you are incel because you don't have access to any of the copes an average human does, your life is 100% all of the bad of being a regular person, with non of the perks, its a worthless life, a life not worth living, this is why I have no fear of death, I've become so tired of life that all the fear I had before is gone now

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

My goal is to live in a mansion on a tropical island by age 30. Never began.

 

[Deleted member 27204]

My goal is to live in a mansion on a tropical island by age 30. Never began.

Don't forget a nice drink in hand if you want to live up to your username.

 

[Babica Yaga]

I see wealthmaxxing as a way to achieve ascension (if you can even call it that..), as it will allow to fully spend time pursuing and not worry about time consuming dumb shit like working to pay for expenses. I set my time horizon to 10 years, by then I'll be about 35. If I did not succeed by then it is rope.

Plan:
Hopefully wealthmaxxed from crypto in 5 years (1-2 million net worth I would consider enough) -> Try to find a foid ideally age 25-28 to start a family with and have kids -> if no luck in this country, emigrate back to homeland and try there -> If still no luck by 35 blow all my money in Thailand, maybe leave some for my sister and her kids -> Rope

 

[PHp]

I wouldn't say I made a pact like this, or with ascencion. However, I used to dread my future out of fear of being lonely, since this solitude gets harder and harder to cope with everyday.

I'm in uni and I can't motivate myself to study or anything else really, I always think stuff like "Why am I trying to become a medic if I get so crushed due to this lack of something so basic to most people that no matter how much money I'll end up making, how many people I help, I'll never be happy thanks to not being able to build closer relationships?". For a while, I tried to better myself but it seems I'm too old to change anything about the way I am right now, needless to say I can't change much about my looks either, and this only made this fear of my own future worse.

But recently I've come to terms with it, I've accepted that I'll never be happy because of it. Everything I do now is to escape reality, I either watch anime or play something just to get my head out of this world, not even to have fun. I'll keep doing this until the pain becomes unbearable, the copes don't work anymore and I finally have the guts to kill myself.

I know this can sound kind of pathetic, but at least I've tried to fight it, I really did. I guess it just wasn't meant for me to win this one.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

My goal is to live in a mansion on a tropical island by age 30. Never began.

what would you do on a tropical island?

 

[Emba]

It depends on your interpretation of wealth. But, if that's what it takes to motivate you, then go for it.

A better motivation would be just the goal of wealthmaxxing. Not the fear / idea / concept of death. But the love of the lifestyle the money can provide.

A sort of "pull" towards your goal.

Not necessarily about the "money," but about the LIFESTYLE that the money can provide....

Most of the "well off" people i know are happy about their careers / lifestyles, right now. The money is a type of "side effect." Sure some of them bust ass, and work hard, but THEY WORK FOR THEMSELVES, and have a good cpa and write off a lot of shit to minimize taxes.

One of them has a saying. Life is short so make the most of your dash.
Such as the - between your birth year and your death year on your tombstone.

A good passive income can be made with book sales.

 

[Indari]

I do hear people talking about death pacts a lot.
setting a specific date is senseless

 

[Deleted member 19971]

I have the "have sex" pact before 30

 

[Deleted member 32183]

There's no fucking way I'm living past 30 as a khhv, even 20s is seriously pushing it
I don't wanna use escorts either
If I can't experience a single positive relationship by 30 I will surrender all hope and rope
there's still a bit of bluepill keeping me alive

If I somehow manage to get enough money while I'm young I might leave the job market and spend the last few years of my life NEETing
In those last years I will spend my time composing music, playing vidya, and cooming
I have always wanted to write some sort of autobiography although I'm pretty sure no one will read it
It sucks that most men's lives will go unremembered and their struggles will be lost to time

Life as a modern day average human just feels rushed, it feels like its all moving so fast, and that experience feels 100 times worse when you are incel because you don't have access to any of the copes an average human does, your life is 100% all of the bad of being a regular person, with non of the perks, its a worthless life, a life not worth living, this is why I have no fear of death, I've become so tired of life that all the fear I had before is gone now

normies have effectively ruined socialization by turning it into a competition
It is extremely rare to find meaningful lifelong bonds in todays world because it moves so fast
Everyone else swiftly found their place in society while we were left behind

 

[Deleted member 24081]

Yes, wealthmaxxing and ascension. Basically if my life situation doesn’t improve by the time I’m 25, I’m roping.

 

[BlkPillPres]

I know this can sound kind of pathetic, but at least I've tried to fight it, I really did. I guess it just wasn't meant for me to win this one.

1. JFL I don't get your logic here, is the only path in life to become a medic, just don't be a medic and find something else to do that makes you money

Heck I wanted to be a programmer, but the way things are looking now I'm probably going to end up being a day trader, just do what it takes to get rich, that's all that matters lol

2. There's no such thing as "happiness", its an illusion, and it isn't dependable criteria for making life choices

Anybody can be "happy" under almost any circumstances, because its such a subjective concept

There's some poor struggling farmer out there who is happy to at least be able to feed his family

There's some cuck in an open relationship that's genuinely happy to be in it because that's his fetish

Etc, etc, etc

Chasing happiness is illogical when you really think about it, one should pursue objective goals if they truly want an enjoyable life, not a life that they just THINK or FEEL they enjoy (which is every normie), but one that they KNOW they enjoy (because they pursue things that are objectively beneficial)

Don't chase happiness, pursue satisfaction (physical sensations), there is no doubting satisfaction, its not subjective

I do hear people talking about death pacts a lot.
setting a specific date is senseless

Setting a specific date if you aren't doing anything about your life (you are the LDAR type) is senseless

I made an entire thread about this very topic:

[Hard To Swallow Edition] If You Are Never Going To Try And Change Your Life & You Plan On Committing Suicide, There's No Point In Waiting A Few Years

TBH I hate every LDAR person, to me that is a source of ragefuel, everytime I see one of them speak I start to imagine myself slitting their throats or strangling them, I truly hate them. I''m not even kidding, I actually start feeling a shaking anger whenever I read one of their posts, its...

incels.is

If you are actually doing something, having a deadline is a good motivator, and it gives you a sense of purpose, makes you really feel the gravity of the situation

This isn't just a "want" or a "need", its a life or death situation. A lot of guys who feel like they have no motivation could benefit from this way of thinking and living

Yes, wealthmaxxing and ascension. Basically if my life situation doesn’t improve by the time I’m 25, I’m roping.

I hope you are in your teens or very close to your goal already, else you have one very short deadline lol

I don't wanna use escorts either

Why?

 

[incelerated]

tldr
But to answer the title no. I don't have any death pacts.
Plans, promises, pacts, resolutions, goals, etc. are of no consequence. This world does whatever it wants. We are slaves to our genes and our fate, everything else is cope.

 

[Adamhastor]

My goal is to live in a mansion on a tropical island by age 30. Never began.

Find some billionaire like Epstein, suck his cock and film it, then sue him for rape

 

[Pengwin]

I'd say ascend before 30 or rope.

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

Find some billionaire like Epstein, suck his cock and film it, then sue him for rape

I'm not a foid.

 

[Total Imbecile]

Death pacts are pointless

Whatever goal I set I will 100% fail, might as well just call it a suicide date

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

Don't forget a nice drink in hand if you want to live up to your username.

Actually the only missing thing at this point is the mansion.

what would you do on a tropical island?

What I curently do : drink all day, play vidyas, spend time on the beach ... What else is to life, idk.

 

[BlkPillPres]

We are slaves to our genes and our fate

No such thing as fate, I hope guys like you realize that all you've done is replace whatever religion you used to believe in with the biological determinism

You haven't stopped being "religious" (which is illogical), you've merely transitioned to another God that tells you to do nothing and to accept its rules

Why don't you just kill yourself already if you aren't even going to try anything, whats the point?

 

[Deleted member 30146]

1 year is nowhere near enough to achieve what you're aiming for, give yourself at least 3-5 years, at least that's how long it took me.

 

[Tenshi]

Death pacts are pointless

Whatever goal I set I will 100% fail, might as well just call it a suicide date

 

[BlkPillPres]

1 year is nowhere near enough to achieve what you're aiming for, give yourself at least 3-5 years, at least that's how long it took me.

1. I didn't give myself 1 year, that's obviously too short a time span, and don't ask how long I gave myself, I would take that as you trying to gauge my actual age FBIcel

2. How did you get rich (stocks, forex, eCommerce, etc)?

3. What the hell are you doing on this forum? lol

When I get rich I'm not coming here anymore, the forum is pretty much dead, nobody posts any interesting threads anymore, people barely even log in anymore, basically nobody here is trying to better themselves so you can't learn from anyone and share knowledge, etc

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

When I get rich I'm not coming here anymore, the forum is pretty much dead, nobody posts any interesting threads anymore, people barely even log in anymore, basically nobody here is trying to better themselves so you can't learn from anyone and share knowledge, etc

All the most based users got banned since 2017, which means that now fucktards, grAYcel and consensual blackpill eunnuchs are all that's left.

 

[Deleted member 30146]

1. I didn't give myself 1 year, that's obviously too short a time span, and don't ask how long I gave myself, I would take that as you trying to gauge my actual age FBIcel

2. How did you get rich (stocks, forex, eCommerce, etc)?

3. What the hell are you doing on this forum? lol

When I get rich I'm not coming here anymore, the forum is pretty much dead, nobody posts any interesting threads anymore, people barely even log in anymore, basically nobody here is trying to better themselves so you can't learn from anyone and share knowledge, etc

It's too specific, don't want to dox myself, I'm not rich, it's a semi-passive income. I rarely visit this forum too, I'm working to reach my goal and then will SEAmaxx.

 

[grondilu]

IMHO 30 is way too young to give up on whatever it is you want to achieve in life.

Why setting up a deadline anyway ? To blackmail yourself into doing what you want ? Sounds pretty dumb.

If you think it can be done and if you see a way, then just walk that way. How long it will take to reach the end should not matter.

PS. "but but but I want to succeed before I get old" Meh, humans actually live very long. You have plenty of time, you just have not to waste it.

 

[BlkPillPres]

It's too specific, don't want to dox myself, I'm not rich, it's a semi-passive income. I rarely visit this forum too

Understandable, if its so specific that it has nothing to do with the 3 I mentioned, then I likely couldn't do it either, I'm always looking for more things to try

I'm working to reach my goal and then will SEAmaxx.

Great, enjoy, hopefully I can catch up

 

[Nowy]

i have decided long ago to kill myself by the age of 25 if i fail to make my life enjoyable to that point. i won't be suffering like i am now past that age. that would be just pointless.

 

[Deleted member 32725]

Same, brocel
I have told myself that I have until 32 to get a solid career going or else I can enact my super secret special suicide plan.
If I fail, I'll write my final thoughts and commit suicide in a lulzy way.
Maybe buying a ticket to a female comedy special, shouting something to the effect of "That was so unfunny I am going to kill myself!" and then blowing my brains out.
Or else buying an Emoji Movie onesie and jumping off the Empire State Building.
I dunno. Something fun.

 

[BlkPillPres]

IMHO 30 is way too young to give up on whatever it is you want to achieve in life.

JFL 30 is literally half of your fucking life, what the hell are you talking about, and its the end part FOR THE BEST HALF when you are at the peak of health and performance

I'm sorry, what excites me about being rich isn't sitting at a nice warm fire place and "reading a good book", my 30's and my 40's are going to be my best years, I have no problem dying at 50, 50's onwards are useless for the most part

Unless you are following a very strict diet and exercise plan you won't have much energy to do anything and you won't be healthy at all

Why setting up a deadline anyway ? To blackmail yourself into doing what you want ? Sounds pretty dumb.

1. If you aren't setting a deadline and you keeping going on and on about how much you want to kill yourself, you are just an edgefag, a poser. It makes no sense to come to this forum for decades talking about how much you want to die everyday, that's ridiculous, the guys who aren't setting deadlines are the ones who sound dumb to me, it shows you have no self awareness and you never really had any plans to kill yourself, and you don't really want to die, you just have a marytr complex and you like patting yourself on the back for "surviving"

2. Dude isn't the point of a deadline IN ANY ASPECT OF LIFE to "blackmail" (motivate) yourself into doing something efficiently

Are work deadlines "dumb" if they make you get the job done on time?

I don't get what you are saying here, deadlines serve an important purpose there's nothing "dumb" about it. They make the "future" into something serious and "real", most people cope and procrastinate because they don't set deadlines, so the "impending problem" doesn't "feel real" to them (until its too late)

If you think it can be done and if you see a way, then just walk that way. How long it will take to reach the end should not matter.

Okay so if you finish wealthmaxxing at 60, that makes sense to you, my back will be shit I won't be able to fuck, food won't taste as good, sights won't look as good, what would be the point in living?

I am primarily wealthmaxxing to hookercel, my libido is pretty much my driving force, there's no point in getting rich at an age in which I can barely even enjoy sex, 30 is the bare minimum in which I could still have an enjoyable "sex life"

"but but but I want to succeed before I get old" Meh, humans actually live very long. You have plenty of time, you just have not to waste it.

Dude, if you can't comprehend something as ridiculously simple as your health and ability declining with age (WITHOUT ME TELLING YOU) then you aren't using your brain at all

You are saying "humans actually live very long" as if your body doesn't turn to shit by 50

Are you even putting any effort into thinking about this at all?

Do you think being a 50 year old is as enjoyable as being a 20 year old?

Maybe buying a ticket to a female comedy special, shouting something to the effect of "That was so unfunny I am going to kill myself!" and then blowing my brains out.
Or else buying an Emoji Movie onesie and jumping off the Empire State Building.
I dunno. Something fun.

Goes to the most hyped up TEDX Talk Premiere

Stands up in crowd and shouts - "Wow!, you really BLEW! my mind" (blow your brains out with a pistol)

Death pacts are pointless

Whatever goal I set I will 100% fail, might as well just call it a suicide date

The irony, you know whats even more pointless, continuing to live the shitty life you do now with no intentions of ever changing it, so why don't you just kill yourself tomorrow or something, no point in waiting at all, you waiting to die is ironically whats pointless

[Hard To Swallow Edition] If You Are Never Going To Try And Change Your Life & You Plan On Committing Suicide, There's No Point In Waiting A Few Years

TBH I hate every LDAR person, to me that is a source of ragefuel, everytime I see one of them speak I start to imagine myself slitting their throats or strangling them, I truly hate them. I''m not even kidding, I actually start feeling a shaking anger whenever I read one of their posts, its...

incels.is

 

[grondilu]

I am primarily wealthmaxxing to hookercel

you don't have to be rich to fuck whores, unless you want so-called "sugar babies".

 

[incelerated]

Why don't you just kill yourself already if you aren't even going to try anything, whats the point?

I would most certainly have done it many years ago if it wasn't for my parents. Unfortunately guns are illegal in my country so I can't get a gun and kill all of us together. And I can't bring myself to hurt them like that by killing myself because they've had enough in their lives. So I just keep being alive for their sake.

 

[grondilu]

Do you think being a 50 year old is as enjoyable as being a 20 year old?

I'm almost 43 and I honestly don't feel much different than when I was 20.

I sincerely believe people underestimate the human lifespan, because so many of them fuck up their health with a shitty lifestyle.

 

[BlkPillPres]

you don't have to be rich to fuck whores, unless you want so-called "sugar babies".

You do if you want to fuck them consistently, and you do if you want to be able to move to another country and buy a place or rent, I want to fuck whores in SEA, its going to require money to MOVE there (NOT VISIT). I want to change my life, not "get a break", this is why travel vacations never made sense to me, I don't see the point of a "temporary escape", It would just make me hate my current life even more, I want a complete change

I would most certainly have done it many years ago if it wasn't for my parents. Unfortunately guns are illegal in my country so I can't get a gun and kill all of us together

1. There's no need to use a gun, if you wanted to die you would have found a way, there are many inexpensive and painless ways to kill yourself, you haven't done it yet because you aren't looking for these solutions, and you aren't looking because you don't really want to die

2. Why the fuck are you trying to kill them too, its your life that's shit, just kill yourself, no reason to bring them into it. Now its even more obvious you don't want to die, you want to "take others with you" so it feels like less of a burden, if you really wanted to die, other people dying with you would not be a factor

 

[grondilu]

You do if you want to fuck them consistently, and you do if you want to be able to move to another country and buy a place or rent, I want to fuck whores in SEA, its going to require money to MOVE there (NOT VISIT). I want to change my life, not "get a break", this is why travel vacations never made sense to me, I don't see the point of a "temporary escape", It would just make me hate my current life even more, I want a complete change

Hang on. Have you ever fucked a whore at least once ? If not, how do you even know if you would enjoy it ?

You should see sex tourism as a way to experiment this exile you envision, not as "vacations". Otherwise what you're planning is a big leap of faith.

 

[BlkPillPres]

Hang on. Have you ever fucked a whore at least once ? If not, how do you even know if you would enjoy it ?

Yes I have fucked a whore, but it just sounds kind of weird to me for you to use this reasoning, because even if I didn't fuck a whore I jerk off to porn right?, so if you enjoy jerking off to something, isn't it obvious you are going to enjoy doing that thing more than jerking off to it?

You should see sex tourism as a way to experiment this exile you envision, not as "vacations".

There's no need to experiment, I know what I want completely, I'm not someone who makes decisions half heatedly and without research

One of the most important perks to me about SEA countries is the very low cost of living, so If I'm generating US dollars whilst living there I can basically live like a king, you can literally buy large apartments in the Philippines for around $100000 US and then rent them off and live off of the rent

I plan on being a millionaire (or at least have 500K) before I go there

As I get nearer to my goal I'm going to start looking into how to get citizenship into the country I decide to live in, etc, I'm not taking this lightly at all, I am planning this all out

 

[Deleted member 27159]

I don’t have an exact age or date but my goal is to have a good income which will let me afford to fuck whores atleast twice a month. If I am a virgin or pretty poor by my late twenties then I will rope

 

[Laplace]

If i wont be married at 32 i will kill myself.

 

[BlkPillPres]

If i wont be married at 32 i will kill myself.

Seems like the worst kind of goal to set because its too vague

For example:
What kind of woman do you want to marry?
What is your looks rating?
How wealthy are you planning to be before you start looking for a wife?
Etc

Start adding in variables like that and you may realize that your goal is pretty much impossible

Also if you set your standards low enough, getting married is now a simple task, if you are willing to marry a 4/10 land whale you will be married by 32, but I doubt that's what you want

I don't know why any incel would still be chasing after the dream of marriage though, especially when you are aware of divorce rates, paternity fraud rates, alimony costs, etc

Is that really a goal you should have knowing your level of looks?

If you get rich its pretty much set in stone that you will be divorce raped and lose 50% of your wealth which she will now spend on Chad, doesn't make sense to me. I know my looks level, so I would never bother getting married, and I'm like a 5/10 (probably 4.5/10) and I still would not consider getting married lol

 

[Nowy]

View: https://youtu.be/4cCZk9fZ9eE

 

[BlkPillPres]

View: https://youtu.be/4cCZk9fZ9eE

 

[Indari]

Coping if you think SEAmaxxing will cure your depression. There's a lot more to happiness than sex and money. And dumb gatekeeping bs to expect everyone else to make "death pacts" over it the fuck.

 

[BlkPillPres]

Coping if you think SEAmaxxing will cure your depression.

I literally only start feeling depressed when I'm horny or I think about sex, I'm not like you guys who are still coping and thinking about "love", a true black piller knows that "love" is nothing but a figment of human imagination, it all comes down to physical attraction, and if you have already accepted that then there's no reason for you to care about "being in a relationship"

There's a lot more to happiness than sex and money

There's no such thing as "happiness", and when I say that I mean that happiness is not something objective that can be quantified and measured, worse than that its completely subjective so it definitely isn't a dependable criteria for determining whether a choice was "worth making"

Right now there's a poor farmer who is "happy" that he is just able to feed his family

Right now there's some cuck in an open relationship that's genuinely happy to be in one because that's his fetish

Are you getting the point?

Anyone can be "happy" under virtually any circumstances, because happiness is subjective

This is why I keep saying, don't chase happiness, pursue satisfaction (as in physical satisfaction)

The feeling of being full after eating is objective
The feeling of your thirst being quenched after drinking water is objective
The feeling of pleasure and orgasm during and after sex is objective
Etc, etc, etc

These things are quantifiable, they aren't felt "by the heart" (like "happiness"), they are felt "by the body"

Satisfaction is what makes life truly enjoyable, not something as vague as "happiness", chasing "happiness" is often what leads to people having regrets in life, because you are being led by your emotions, if you pursue satisfaction then you naturally have no choice but to pursue objective goals that lead to the resources that allow you to satisfy yourself

Which reminds me of a thread I made:

The 5 S's (All A Man Really Needs For A Satisfying Life)

1. Sustenance (food, water, etc) 2. Shelter (home that protects you from "the elements") 3. Security (safe acquisition, ownership and usage of assets and resources) 4. Sex (sex and/or reproduction) 5. Spectacles (entertainment) I just want to create a life where I have access to these 5 things...

incels.is

When you have objective pursuits, you set objective goals, and you end up with objective results

And dumb gatekeeping bs to expect everyone else to make "death pacts" over it the fuck.

JFL I never said anyone else has to do it, I'm just saying its what I have done

But tell me, does it make sense to come on here every day complaining about how much you want to die and kill yourself, yet you never go through with it?, at that point you are just an attention whore and a poser.

You are 20 years old - "I want to kill myself guys"
You are 30 years old - "I want to kill myself guys"
You are 40 years old - "I really really want to kill myself, I hate my life"
You are 50 years old - "This time its real guys, I can feel it, I'm going to kill myself soon"

Anyone with common sense:

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cjl0p0MdvQ0

 

[Dregster]

Death pacts are pointless

Whatever goal I set I will 100% fail, might as well just call it a suicide date

 

[Total Imbecile]

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3 alerst, all 3 are aviquotes

Smh

 

[Dregster]

3 alerst, all 3 are aviquotes

Smh

 

[Ellsworth]

@BlkPillPres can you make a thread or pm me about day trading? It’s something I would like to eventually get into but still have a lot to learn. It seems like it would be an ideal career for me.

As far as wealth maxxing for me, I have simple tastes so no desire for mansions or fancy cars, I just want what “mgtow money” call F-you money, meaning you are in a financial position to where you never again have to work a shitty job you hate and can say fuck you and walk out at any time and be ok.

 

[Deleted member 24297]

Rope is a waste without blowing a final kiss

 

[based_meme]

I don't see the point of making such pacts. A deadline to motivate yourself? If that's the case, then you're motivated to live and not die, in which case the death pact becomes kind of moot anyway.

Just do the best your skills, circumstances, and luck allows. You can't do any more than that anyhow. You don't need some stupid pact for some arbitrary age/date. What if your big break comes the year after? Oops. What if it doesn't? You still made the effort, instead of giving up altogether because of some self-imposed due date.

If something is so valuable or so worth doing/having that you'd be willing to stake your life on it, then you owe it to yourself to do absolutely everything possible to try and succeed. That may happen to take longer than the arbitrary amount of time you're giving yourself.

 

[Izayacel]

Delusional but atleast you die, trying

 

[dirtykombatcel]

Death pacts don't work on 99.99% of people because most wouldn't be willing to carry out their own end of the bargain if they fail (killing themselves). Everyone acts like tough shit when it comes to suicide and death until they're actually faced with doing it.