At a certain point around 2019 I had reached my limit of how much I was willing to tolerate my shitty existence, I had already thought about killing myself before but this time I was serious.
Actually I think "serious" is the wrong word to describe my state of mind then and now, it was more like I had finally accepted it, the thought of dying was no longer filled with a sense of fear or dispear (there was no seriousness at all). I felt calm, I felt at peace about it, like a weight was off my chest, but I wasn't just going to off myself if I had a chance at an enjoyable life.
So I made a pact with myself with respect to wealthmaxxing:
If I am not wealthmaxxed by the age of 30 I plan on killing myself
By wealthmaxxed I mean being able to live on my own, pay all of my bills and expenses, etc through means of passive income streams that are automatic or semi-automatic, allowing me to live a life of worry free leisure and pleasure, with minimal effort required.
I began to take steps and put a lot of effort towards getting to that goal, trying many things in many different fields. How close or far I am away from that goal, I would never say until I get to the end of either road (complete success or complete failure). I don't want to "jinx" it, also its just a good practice to not talk about the details of your financial pursuits or business while they are "in the works"
The time for boasting comes after you make it, not while you are in the process of doing it lol
Maybe one day I'll be making that "farewell" thread on this forum
I know, I know - "But there's no guarantee you'll make it after all of that effort".
Yeah, chances are slim as hell, I came to terms with that a while now, if I fail I kill myself, if I succeed I'll no longer feel like dying because my life will be amazing now, win win.
I always find it weird how so many incels on this forum don't see this as the perfect opportunity, all of us are always talking about how much we want to die and how tired we are of life
So why is it I never see any incels talking about this "deadline" as if its a common thing, why is it I've never heard another incel talk about something similar to the "pact" I mention in this thread
If you know you want to die, and you hate your life, isn't it common sense to structure your life around the goal of changing it for the better, in such a manner that failure means death
I can't imagine another 10 years as my regular self who has to go to work everyday, be horny as fuck all his life, slaving away all the hours, scarfing down fast food and putting on weight like crazy because I don't feel like I have enough time to cook, etc.
Life as a modern day average human just feels rushed, it feels like its all moving so fast, and that experience feels 100 times worse when you are incel because you don't have access to any of the copes an average human does, your life is 100% all of the bad of being a regular person, with non of the perks, its a worthless life, a life not worth living, this is why I have no fear of death, I've become so tired of life that all the fear I had before is gone now
