bigantennaemay1
Aspie social drifter without purpose or home
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Nearing the 30 yo mark, I was never able to make a single friend no matter how much I socialmaxxed, clothesmaxxed, and all the other unsuccessful attempts.
Always picked last in the teams' sport during HS, always the one with no teammates on group assignments during college, always the one eating lunch alone at work.
I loath the moment my coworkers organise some afterwork. The etiquette obliges me to attend, but either I am sitting alone at the far away table or people try to avoid me and are visibly annoyed when I seat myself in the middle. They have no way to escape my gaze .
All relatable. Once you hit a certain point, and you realize your efforts have afforded you nothing, sometimes you just gotta accept reality, and cut your losses and move on. I still can't do that career-wise, because I need money to move out as I'm losing my mind in my bedroom, but with all the social stuff, I'm just burnt out. I went for as long as I had the energy to do so.People seem to be annoyed by my presence alone, it's a soul shattering feeling and thoughout my life, this one conclusion holds true "There is nothing I can do about it".
Sorry to say, but I just think that's the inevitable conclusion you'll arrive at in this situation, if you allow yourself to objectively analyze life.