i have no body language or verbal expression skills
when i talk, i only do it in one tone of voice, of course I laugh and smile, but it's hard for me to imitate others or trying to communicate excitement to other people, I feel like I look ridiculous when doing it. (I know I look ridiculous because other people laugh when I do it)
i never say bad words in real life, i think it's because of the extreme discipline i receibed from my dad who used to beat me hard when I was a kid for saying bad words (locking me in the bathroom during hours so no one can see the bruises on my arms and back
)
i learned the lesson, my brain learned the lesson for the rest of my life...
now i'm a robot, incapable of showing angry or saying bad words
it was like the ludovic method in the clockwork orange, i just i can't do it.
and it's a huge problem when i try to look "normal", all the people realizes it, everyone asks me why I am so kind.
this is a huge problem because all the mexican slang uses bad words and i'm a weirdo.
it's beyond over for me and my attempt to be a "normal person"
all my language skills are broken
when i talk, i only do it in one tone of voice, of course I laugh and smile, but it's hard for me to imitate others or trying to communicate excitement to other people, I feel like I look ridiculous when doing it. (I know I look ridiculous because other people laugh when I do it)
i never say bad words in real life, i think it's because of the extreme discipline i receibed from my dad who used to beat me hard when I was a kid for saying bad words (locking me in the bathroom during hours so no one can see the bruises on my arms and back
)i learned the lesson, my brain learned the lesson for the rest of my life...
now i'm a robot, incapable of showing angry or saying bad words
it was like the ludovic method in the clockwork orange, i just i can't do it.
and it's a huge problem when i try to look "normal", all the people realizes it, everyone asks me why I am so kind.
this is a huge problem because all the mexican slang uses bad words and i'm a weirdo.
it's beyond over for me and my attempt to be a "normal person"
all my language skills are broken
