since late 2023 my life has went down a shitty spiral. all my friends started acting different as they got older and they became more and more obnoxious and egotistical which led to us falling out. i had to change base room in my school with a new class and they all hated me while losing all my friends. i coped with smoking carts which were just spice. eventually i threw up Infront of my whole class when i was abusing spice near the end of the year. the humiliation was unbearable i had to drop out, no way could i have done another year of that shitty hellhole of a school of retards constantly sucking each others egos off. i still think about that horrible year at school and that day particularly. it hurt my ego so much i cant talk to other people anymore besides being a sub 8.then i became a NEET for 6 months until i got accepted to a trade school thing i have in my country. i have so much hatred and humiliation for all the evil vile cunts who laughed at me for abusing drugs to cope with my father death in 2021. i had people laugh in my face for it it was dystopian.
I'm moving on from that trade school soon. I'm nervous about starting college since I'm a late bloomer. i know i will be treated even shittier than i was, i don't see myself working for the rest of my life or living past my mid 20s. i don't have the willpower to kill myself yet. I've tried talking to a therapist but my mom only brings me to a faggot who only wants to talk about magic rocks and that gay fairy faggot blue pill shit.
idk man everywhere i go in life it feels like i dont belong, like im out of place and i belong somewhere else but when i try and go somewhere else or talk to someone new i get the same feeling, it sounds weird but it feels like free mode in a video game but with a lot of dread. like "this is pointless"
I'm moving on from that trade school soon. I'm nervous about starting college since I'm a late bloomer. i know i will be treated even shittier than i was, i don't see myself working for the rest of my life or living past my mid 20s. i don't have the willpower to kill myself yet. I've tried talking to a therapist but my mom only brings me to a faggot who only wants to talk about magic rocks and that gay fairy faggot blue pill shit.
idk man everywhere i go in life it feels like i dont belong, like im out of place and i belong somewhere else but when i try and go somewhere else or talk to someone new i get the same feeling, it sounds weird but it feels like free mode in a video game but with a lot of dread. like "this is pointless"
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