
Mortis
The Senator of Suffering & Minister of Misery
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- Jun 8, 2022
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I am feeling extremely sad about the reality of life. I haven't cried in so long and out of nowhere I stumbled into a massive mental breakdown crying my eyes out about my situation.
I know it's going to get worse on every level, without any betterment in the foreseeable future, and I want to kill myself so horribly bad but there is constantly a part in me that screams "Is this really it? Is this the life I am destined to live? I had one shot at life one fucking shot and I completely fucked it up to the point of no return. I was granted the "gift" of life at random and this is how it is going to play out?"
I don't want this guys it isn't fucking fair why is everything so horribly unfair good God I can't do this anymore all this LDARing has made me gone mad. I just wish that things could be diffrent oh how I wish that things could be different. I would do absolutely anything to be anyone but myself. This is worse than hell.
I know it's going to get worse on every level, without any betterment in the foreseeable future, and I want to kill myself so horribly bad but there is constantly a part in me that screams "Is this really it? Is this the life I am destined to live? I had one shot at life one fucking shot and I completely fucked it up to the point of no return. I was granted the "gift" of life at random and this is how it is going to play out?"
I don't want this guys it isn't fucking fair why is everything so horribly unfair good God I can't do this anymore all this LDARing has made me gone mad. I just wish that things could be diffrent oh how I wish that things could be different. I would do absolutely anything to be anyone but myself. This is worse than hell.