Ryo_Hazuki
Mythic
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- Joined
- Nov 7, 2017
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I know i'll be called an attention whore for having announced I was leaving twice only to come back later, and that's a fair criticism. I still stand by what I said about this community, but I also realize that I have no where else to go.
Both of my parents died not too long ago, I no longer have any friends, I don't enjoy anything anymore, I have multiple chronic health conditions which aren't life threatening but make my life much worse and cause chronic pain... I can't deal with this life. I'm middle aged, have no friends anymore, work a dead end low wage job, low IQ, sub4 ogre. I'm just not meant for this world.
I've come to terms with the fact that no woman is ever going to want anything to do with me, but at this point my problems go way beyond "no gf". I just want to find peace and stop suffering.
There's also almost nobody I can relate to anymore. I can't really relate to anyone under 30 or so, and most people my age are either married, have an actual career as opposed to some McJob. There are a couple guys at my job who seem to be in the same boat (around my age, sub4, likely trucel) but neither seem interested in socializing. They seem so beaten down from life that they've completely withdrawn from society as much as you reasonably can at this age. They sure as hell don't seem like they'd open up to me or anyone else for that matter.
I know most of you are much much younger than me. A lot of you are edgelords, but most of you will grow out of it, trust me. But maybe at least a few of you are oldcels who can relate. Side note, it's depressing thinking how many OGs have gone and never returned. They probably moved on with their life...but why can't I? I'm a failure even by old truecel standards.
I completely understand why no woman would want to be with someone who is an ugly failure on my level, i'm not even angry at anyone, I just want some respite from this crippling emptiness. I want to have hope but I can't find any.
Both of my parents died not too long ago, I no longer have any friends, I don't enjoy anything anymore, I have multiple chronic health conditions which aren't life threatening but make my life much worse and cause chronic pain... I can't deal with this life. I'm middle aged, have no friends anymore, work a dead end low wage job, low IQ, sub4 ogre. I'm just not meant for this world.
I've come to terms with the fact that no woman is ever going to want anything to do with me, but at this point my problems go way beyond "no gf". I just want to find peace and stop suffering.
There's also almost nobody I can relate to anymore. I can't really relate to anyone under 30 or so, and most people my age are either married, have an actual career as opposed to some McJob. There are a couple guys at my job who seem to be in the same boat (around my age, sub4, likely trucel) but neither seem interested in socializing. They seem so beaten down from life that they've completely withdrawn from society as much as you reasonably can at this age. They sure as hell don't seem like they'd open up to me or anyone else for that matter.
I know most of you are much much younger than me. A lot of you are edgelords, but most of you will grow out of it, trust me. But maybe at least a few of you are oldcels who can relate. Side note, it's depressing thinking how many OGs have gone and never returned. They probably moved on with their life...but why can't I? I'm a failure even by old truecel standards.
I completely understand why no woman would want to be with someone who is an ugly failure on my level, i'm not even angry at anyone, I just want some respite from this crippling emptiness. I want to have hope but I can't find any.