SuicideFuel I can't rope

[saintardi]

I've lost enjoyment in absolutely everything getting a girl is completely out of question for me because I'd kill her if i get one if i find out she even had a male friend before plus I'm too ugly for that normie bullshit

I'd kill myself right now but I used to be a religiouscel before and the fear of a brutal hell is stuck with me since then...that was the happiest period of my life being a religious muslimcel who coped that this is all a test from God but idk why i let myself go completely when i found out foids go and preach islam to males they find attractive or make dua (prayer) for them this made me realise looks can deadass send you to heaven and how easy it is to be grateful to God if you're born attractive and how easy it is to get involved in groups with people and how well they treat you something which i never had even other muslims mocked me especially hijabis and muslim foids

I found this very unfair and completely let myself go especially after seeing muslim chads...if they get the same heaven as me why even bother I'm suffer for nothing here atp

But yeah this fear of a hell existing has kept me alive for about 2 years now even tho my desire to rope is through the roof and idk how to get over it...im 19 recessed jaw very bad vision I can't even enjoy shit because I can't fucking see much even with glasses i have a horrid family which makes fun of me on the daily basis I'm very very broke can't even afford bulking up to be a gymcel my life is utter garbage idk if it'll ever get better it's been shit from the moment i was born especially the eyesight part is ruining my life i have severe eye problems which my parents don't care to get fixed i hate my fucking mom and dad for deciding to give birth to me knowing they were so poor low IQ and abusive to begin with

 

[AdolfRizzler]

this world is hell, god doesn t exist and if he exists, he hates us!
is this the god s plan for us to rot all life, is the god s plan for a kid of 3 years old to painfully die?

 

[saintardi]

this world is hell, god doesn t exist and if he exists, he hates us!
is this the god s plan for us to rot all life, is the god s plan for a kid of 3 years old to painfully die?

I wish i died as a kid I'd be in heaven now no matter what the religion kids all go in heaven this whole system is so fucked up

 

[H8mychudlife]

Just wear glasses bro

 

[aryanmikmaq]

Brutal man. I’ve become less religious recently but still believe in God im cultural Roman Catholic.

 

[WastedPotential]

I've lost enjoyment in absolutely everything getting a girl is completely out of question for me because I'd kill her if i get one if i find out she even had a male friend before plus I'm too ugly for that normie bullshit

I'd kill myself right now but I used to be a religiouscel before and the fear of a brutal hell is stuck with me since then...that was the happiest period of my life being a religious muslimcel who coped that this is all a test from God but idk why i let myself go completely when i found out foids go and preach islam to males they find attractive or make dua (prayer) for them this made me realise looks can deadass send you to heaven and how easy it is to be grateful to God if you're born attractive and how easy it is to get involved in groups with people and how well they treat you something which i never had even other muslims mocked me especially hijabis and muslim foids

I found this very unfair and completely let myself go especially after seeing muslim chads...if they get the same heaven as me why even bother I'm suffer for nothing here atp

But yeah this fear of a hell existing has kept me alive for about 2 years now even tho my desire to rope is through the roof and idk how to get over it...im 19 recessed jaw very bad vision I can't even enjoy shit because I can't fucking see much even with glasses i have a horrid family which makes fun of me on the daily basis I'm very very broke can't even afford bulking up to be a gymcel my life is utter garbage idk if it'll ever get better it's been shit from the moment i was born especially the eyesight part is ruining my life i have severe eye problems which my parents don't care to get fixed i hate my fucking mom and dad for deciding to give birth to me knowing they were so poor low IQ and abusive to begin with

Becoming atheist at 19 is brutal, I don't know what to tell you.

Religion is a strong cope for those that believe in it, I personally became atheist around 4 years old, but all I can give as advice is to try and find a good cope.

 

[saintardi]

Brutal man. I’ve become less religious recently but still believe in God im cultural Roman Catholic.

I can't see myself as a Christian for this sole fact

A chad who lives a peak life here but embraces Jesus as his Lord will get the same heaven as a Christian incel who suffers his whole life and gets nothing but misery in this earth so that heaven would feel too shitty and unworthy to obtain for me

This "theory" just proves God makes people suffer for nothing while in Islam there's ranks in heaven and the more you suffer the higher rank of a heaven you get for enduring "Gods test" idk what to even believe anymore

 

[aryanmikmaq]

I can't see myself as a Christian for this sole fact

A chad who lives a peak life here but embraces Jesus as his Lord will get the same heaven as a Christian incel who suffers his whole life and gets nothing but misery in this earth so that heaven would feel too shitty and unworthy to obtain for me

This "theory" just proves God makes people suffer for nothing while in Islam there's ranks in heaven and the more you suffer the higher rank of a heaven you get for enduring "Gods test" idk what to even believe anymore

There are different degrees of being blessed in Christian heaven meaning not everyone has the same rank exactly. The thing is I don’t think most chads are genuine Christians and even if they were we are all reborn in heaven and not the same people really anymore it’s pure perfection so there would be no feelings of jealousy or anything.

 

[saintardi]

There are different degrees of being blessed in Christian heaven meaning not everyone has the same rank exactly. The thing is I don’t think most chads are genuine Christians and even if they were we are all reborn in heaven and not the same people really anymore it’s pure perfection so there would be no feelings of jealousy or anything.

I'll look into reading the bible i have plenty of useless time in my hands nowadays and don't got anything better to do

 

[aryanmikmaq]

I'll look into reading the bible i have plenty of useless time in my hands nowadays and don't got anything better to do

The way I view it I blame the Jews and capitalism for ruining our diets and bringing feminism. And I partly blame our families for giving us these bad genetics. God didn’t intend for humanity to do this and the concept of free will means he can’t just force us to do things until it’s the end times.

 

[The_word_made_flesh]

I can't see myself as a Christian for this sole fact

A chad who lives a peak life here but embraces Jesus as his Lord will get the same heaven as a Christian incel who suffers his whole life and gets nothing but misery in this earth so that heaven would feel too shitty and unworthy to obtain for me

This "theory" just proves God makes people suffer for nothing while in Islam there's ranks in heaven and the more you suffer the higher rank of a heaven you get for enduring "Gods test" idk what to even believe anymore

God has a unique plan for everyone and trying to compare yourself to others is not a good idea.
God made every human with purpose only they can fulfill and every man who is saved by Jesus will never want or desire anything in heaven ,heaven will be eternal peace where the cares of this world do not matter.