Venting I can't regain control of my life. I can't escape womankind's hold on my mind.

[TheLightOfMyLife]

I don't know what it is, but my mind has become progressively more deranged and my life more out of control than it has ever been, and it seems to be happening faster than it had been.
All I can do is think about women, women, insecurities, self-hatred, following the same patterns but without any of the energy of youth to help change this inertia.
I pay women for sex. I pay internet women to call me on discord. I spend hours looking at women on tiktok and instagram.It seems like I just want to drown myself in all the pleasures of women that I cannot have organically. It isn't fulfilling, but it helps to quiet some of those horrible, horrible thoughts inside of me. I've reached a point in life where I believe I can no longer correct my path. Not only am I locked out of getting women, but I believe that I am locked out of any kind of happiness, fulfillment, or even contentment in life. I've reached that point where I'm falling over the edge and can no longer regain my footing, just helpless flail around as I go towards my end. So what am I really to do now? What can I do? I just feel so terrible all the time and I wish that it would all end. I can hardly bear leaving my bed each morning. I wake up from my nightmares only to find myself in a reality that's infinitely more terrifying.

 

[Mecoja]

I pay women for sex. I pay internet women to call me on discord. I spend hours looking at women on tiktok and instagram.It seems like I just want to drown myself in all the pleasures of women that I cannot have organically

I don't do this but I feel the same. Only sliver of happiness I feel is when I chat with one girl. There's no happiness without a woman for me.

 

[TheLightOfMyLife]

I don't do this but I feel the same. Only sliver of happiness I feel is when I chat with one girl. There's no happiness without a woman for me.

I am a machine meant to pursue women. In the absence of female affection. I'm just a robot gone rogue. I've been denied my purpose. I'm kept alive artificially by a world that should have terminated me as a failure. But it instead uses me as a slave.

 

[jartiyer1]

When you try to artificially possess something you can't naturally possess, you burn yourself out. Try to minimize your interactions with foids. Try to stop all that artificial nonsense you're doing.

When I see beautiful women outside, when I watch movies, or on rare occasions when my brain gives up and I watch porn, I feel terrible. Something I can never have is growing inside me, and it pains me. So, minimize your interaction with foids as much as possible. Otherwise, you'll only suffer.

 

[TheLightOfMyLife]

When you try to artificially possess something you can't naturally possess, you burn yourself out. Try to minimize your interactions with foids. Try to stop all that artificial nonsense you're doing.

When I see beautiful women outside, when I watch movies, or on rare occasions when my brain gives up and I watch porn, I feel terrible. Something I can never have is growing inside me, and it pains me. So, minimize your interaction with foids as much as possible. Otherwise, you'll only suffer.

But nothing else feels as good as seeing pretty women. Everything else is so sad and dull. I hate hobbies. I hate exercise. I hate reading. I hate games. But beautiful women give me a feeling of narcotic euphoria
they're all so wonderful
I love foids
I just wish they didn't despise me

 

[jartiyer1]

But nothing else feels as good as seeing pretty women. Everything else is so sad and dull. I hate hobbies. I hate exercise. I hate reading. I hate games. But beautiful women give me a feeling of narcotic euphoria
they're all so wonderful
I love foids
I just wish they didn't despise me

Other actions are far less satisfying than possessing a woman, but there's nothing we can do. You'll only exhaust yourself trying to get something you can't have. To ease the pain, you need to find a copium.

 

[sadlemon]

I just don't really care at this point. When i was younger i had more drive and hope, nowadays i'm just a bleak existence. I can't see myself dating anyone nor being with a woman