Serious I cannot find inner peace.

[Jerek]

This is going to be boring rant: a man in his thirties that feels "old" among an userbase which is, on average, at least 10 years older.

But for some of you 35 is an age where you do not even conceive to exist, and it's normal. For me is reaching 50. If i'll endure to 50, i'll think about roping at 70 etc etc.

I think, since i've became independent i'm happier than before, but there are moments where i feel at my worst: when i go to bed i always fantasize about some quick method of death that will became available for the entire human race and all incels can finally disappear from the world painlessly.

I truly think that a blackpilled non-attractive man cannot find any motivation to live. Yes, i can have copes and there's also escortcelling, i can grow used to be alone but i'm pretty sure all of this will going to bite me in the ass HARD when i'll get even older and feel more lonely.

But even if could get a partner i know she wouldn't be attracted to me, so what's the point. I do not want to be someone that some female settles for. Imagine surrendering to some bluepilled concept and develop affection from a woman and then she leaves you or she cucks you for something out of my control, i wouldn't even want to think about that.

Normal people are bluepilled to an extent that they can delude themselves that they found "love". I don't know how they manage to do that, maybe they are normies and not incels, but there are cucks that are far worse than us in terms of looking (think of the stereotypical fat cuck with a beard) and despite that they can delude themselves too. I guess they know their place as jesters in the society but they manage to live a "normal" life, some of them have children too.

I find myself switching from a position to another endlessly. Sometimes i'm happy because i've got copes, sometimes i hate women, sometimes i hate myself, sometimes i think that i could try to get to know someone but just looking myself into a mirror remembers me that i'm not attractive. Sometimes i escortcel and i feel happy, other times not.

All of this mess while Chad goes through his life effortlessly: today i've seen a chad that was annoying someone in my neighborhood, he was kinda aggressive and someone called the police and he fleed. I bet that dumb shit fucks more (and hotter) women in a week than the average man would do in 10 years. Seeing young girls in their teens makes me so envious of the guys that fucks them. If you miss your teens it's truly over.

In the last year i've started drinking. Not too much, but considering that i've never did that i wonder what will become of me. I'm thinking about smoking too. Nothing exceptional but never did that too. Maybe i'll become an old alcoholoic.

 

[Deleted member 19971]

It's either you whitepill yourself, by either getting into spiritual copes and cast away your needs or if you can go live off in the forest somewhere (either you learn how to survive in the wild or you find an extremely small town)

Or you can be like me, be blackpilled beyond repair and reach a point where you don't care about women anymore (not whitepilled since not content with life)

 

[Deleted member 33893]

I think it's impossible to be both realistic about your situation AND make peace with yourself. You have to pick one of the two. People who manage to delude themselves can be happy but they also crash really hard once they face reality.

I can relate to your belief on dating and your envy towards men who sleep with prime women. But I would still date a woman despite knowing that she is a whore. I would even date an ex pornstar. The only reason why is because I need a lot of sex and intimacy so I would be willing to play along and pretend to care about a woman to get it.

Sorry but escorting just does not work for me. I live in a sparsely populated place and my inhibition is pretty high. I couldn't deal with breaking the law to fuck women nor could I afford it on the regular.

 

[Deleted member 33091]

I am 29 years old so I'll be there soon.

I have two options... Kill myself in some glorious method on my 30th birthday.. Or simply exist coping for the rest of my life... Perhaps I could NEETmaxx and become a burden to society.

I am basically coping right now like you are.

Sorry but escorting just does not work for me. I live in a sparsely populated place and my inhibition is pretty high. I couldn't deal with breaking the law to fuck women nor could I afford it on the regular.

I am too high inhib to escortcel too. Plus I've heard that escorts can be really rude when you're inexperienced and that'd completely destroy my first experience.

 

[Jerek]

This is going to be boring rant: a man in his thirties that feels "old" among an userbase which is, on average, at least 10 years older.

of course i meant younger

It's either you whitepill yourself, by either getting into spiritual copes and cast away your needs or if you can go live off in the forest somewhere (either you learn how to survive in the wild or you find an extremely small town)

Or you can be like me, be blackpilled beyond repair and reach a point where you don't care about women anymore (not whitepilled since not content with life)

I don't care about women too, but there are moments where i'm weaker than usual. I think it's due to age. Of course it's also about wanting to fuck someone that validates you but it's more about loneliness. You can despise women as much as you want and i'm pretty good at feeling indifferent towards females i've got to deal with (coworkers) but i notice that it's full of those moments where i feel that it will get much worse.

I think it's impossible to be both realistic about your situation AND make peace with yourself. You have to pick one of the two. People who manage to delude themselves can be happy but they also crash really hard once they face reality.

I can relate to your belief on dating and your envy towards men who sleep with prime women. But I would still date a woman despite knowing that she is a whore. I would even date an ex pornstar. The only reason why is because I need a lot of sex and intimacy so I would be willing to play along and pretend to care about a woman to get it.

Sorry but escorting just does not work for me. I live in a sparsely populated place and my inhibition is pretty high. I couldn't deal with breaking the law to fuck women nor could I afford it on the regular.

You're right about the first thing. My father is like this and despite being divorce raped (sorta, my mother earned more than him) he's still bluepilled.

Escorting works for me because i live in a big city and here escorts are kinda tolerated, so it's easy.

As usual, you need the validation. Once i've fucked like three escorts in three days and after all that pussy i thought i was "full" and i could go on ignore women, but it doesn't work, there's a clear difference fucking an escort and seeing two teens flirting.

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

Oldcels are depressing

 

[Deleted member 17883]

Fail you. Coping will.

Find islam. You must.

 

[Deleted member 34301]

there's a clear difference fucking an escort and seeing two teens flirting.

The cold hard truth

 

[Emba]

Fail you. Coping will.

Find islam. You must.

There is no mecha.

There is ONLY mecha or mechanaut!

 

[Deleted member 17883]

There is no mecha.

There is ONLY mecca

Subhannlah.

 

[Emba]

Subhannlah.

Akbar!

 

[Deleted member 17883]

Takbeer!

Much to learn, you have.

Infidel.

 

[Emba]

Much to learn, you have.

Infidel.

Tak mead!

 

[Jerek]

Oldcels are depressing

And the weird thing is that i don't feel old. It's like being frozen in time.

 

[Deleted member 27204]

This is going to be boring rant: a man in his thirties that feels "old" among an userbase which is, on average, at least 10 years older.

But for some of you 35 is an age where you do not even conceive to exist, and it's normal. For me is reaching 50. If i'll endure to 50, i'll think about roping at 70 etc etc.

I think, since i've became independent i'm happier than before, but there are moments where i feel at my worst: when i go to bed i always fantasize about some quick method of death that will became available for the entire human race and all incels can finally disappear from the world painlessly.

Depending on where you live in the world some incels have that option open to them.
@riceronicel

 

[riceronicel]

Depending on where you live in the world some incels have that option open to them.
@riceronicel

it's almost laughable how easy it is to buy a gun in my country (USA)

 

[Jerek]

Depending on where you live in the world some incels have that option open to them.
@riceronicel

Switzerland seems the most easy but last time i've informed myself they asked a lot of documentation that proved mental illness/depression/etc and they asked me a lot of money to produce that. It seemed sketchy.

 

[Deleted member 27204]

it's almost laughable how easy it is to buy a gun in my country (USA)

For the longest time the 2nd Amendment has been non negotiable. People will tolerate a lot of infringement on their civil liberties but guns and illegal immigration is where even a lot of complacent people start to draw the line surprisingly.

Switzerland seems the most easy but last time i've informed myself they asked a lot of documentation that proved mental illness/depression/etc and they asked me a lot of money to produce that. It seemed sketchy.

You need a country where you don't have to provide proof of that. Otherwise it's worth getting tested for depression beforehand to get that documentation tbh

 

[Jerek]

You need a country where you don't have to provide proof of that. Otherwise it's worth getting tested for depression beforehand to get that documentation tbh

I've alread been tested for depression, it's not enough. From what i got i needed a specific documentation by a third party and it costed me a lot of money. It was something medical but also legal, can't remember the details.

 

[Deleted member 27204]

I've alread been tested for depression, it's not enough. From what i got i needed a specific documentation by a third party and it costed me a lot of money. It was something medical but also legal, can't remember the details.

Do you have an autism or adhd diagnosis? The kind from taking tests at a psychologist's office? ngl that could be more of use.