Venting I am reaching a point in my life where everything is becoming unbearable

[Icarus]

I am starting to lose all of my patience. The tiniest things set me off, and I go from 0 to 100.

On the outside it appears as some form of bipolar disorder, but in reality it is because I am getting fed up with life. Too much suffering is going on, and it keeps getting worse and worse for me every day.

Imagine being too mentally ill to do anything, and being forced to get continually spiritually and mentally raped by life. Over and over.

All of my dreams are fucked up. I can't sleep anymore. I don't want to be awake.

My only passion is dying, I am dying inside. My body is rotting slowly. I am getting older and tired.

I can't even fucking properly describe how it feels. It defies all words. No expectations is what I have, and I am still disappointed.

Criticized left and right by people who don't actually care to want to understand anything about me.

My life is unbearable.

 

[LonerLothario]

i like your posts, not because of schadenfreude, but because i relate to all of it, especially the health issues

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

the importance of sleep is underrated

 

[Icarus]

i like your posts, not because of schadenfreude, but because i relate to all of it, especially the health issues

Thank you brocel

I'm sorry you feel a similar way. I wish none of it was like this.

 

[Icarus]

the importance of sleep is underrated

It completely changes my mood if I get any.

 

[Moth]

the importance of sleep is underrated

 

[LonerLothario]

Thank you brocel

I'm sorry you feel a similar way. I wish none of it was like this.

just try to remember, it could always get worst, and if it does, i plan on using an exit bag and helium to erase myself off the map completely

 

[Icarus]

just try to remember, it could always get worst, and if it does, i plan on using an exit bag and helium to erase myself off the map completely

Same it's the only way out for me. I don't want to live long. I never wanted to live at all.

I'm just trying to push through just a little longer.

 

[Failed Pullout]

Say something back to them.

 

[VλREN]

I just exist and I try not to think too much about it

 

[Icarus]

Say something back to them.

I do but ultimately it's pointless because they don't actually care about me.

They believe that they are always right, and they are afraid to admit i have some valid criticism.

 

[Icarus]

I just exist and I try not to think too much about it

existence is a living hell

 

[Poopless One]

Imagine being too mentally ill to do anything, and being forced to get continually spiritually and mentally raped by life. Over and over.

I don't have to imagine...

 

[Icarus]

I don't have to imagine...

 

[Todd Thundercock]

Say something back to them.

That will only make things worse in his situation.

His only possible way out is living away from his family, but how is that going to happen.

 

[Icarus]

That will only make things worse in his situation.

His only possible way out is living away from his family, but how is that going to happen.

That's why I cope so hard with alcohol. It's all I have left besides music and this forum.

 

[Tempest]

I seriously encourage you to wageslave your way out and make some online friends, if you still want to be happy. It can get better.

 

[estonia2k]

Just try to address the sleep. If its even possible. It has domino effect.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Lol you're literally me.
I'm trying to cope as hard as i can, but mental pain and exponentially increasing depression or other motherfucking disorders made me so weak i can't even clean up my room, and my car looks like garbage dumpster.
At least i can sleep. Last 3 years i was dying of insomnia.

 

[Judge Holden]

I just exist and I try not to think too much about it

 

[Poopless One]

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I know this is super late but thanks brocel. I really appreciate it.

 

[Icarus]

I know this is super late but thanks brocel. I really appreciate it.

no worries mang