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With the intent to inflict death
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Inceldom has been a very decisive condition for my life. Starting from primary school on. No girl ever had any sexual interest in me. That eventually lead to a crippling of my psyche. I dont know how but at some point sexual feelings began to shut down. As a plant that never received any water feelings of arousal and horniness began their slow decay. Where I used to have a very high sexdrive the cumulative damage took its toll and this very essential part of what it means to be alive has died. Im impotent , lustless and lifeless. If I now would be faced with a girl that shows sexual interests (of course this scenario has to be a hypothetical one) I would have no physical or psychological response to it. The notion that no girl alive would ever have any even the slightest sexual interest in me is has been so ingrained into the most deep parts of my psyche that an event like the abovementioned my mind is just not able to compute. Even porn has no effect on me anymore. Its just a sci-fi in another language for me.
This pulvirized spirit I have (without even mentioning being sub3 in looks and sub0 in mind) rendered the prospect of tasting a drop of love an impossible one.
As the plant shriveling without water I shrivel and find myself in a state of never ending decay and collapse.
I am not sure how I can live knowing I will never feel a drop of love and warmth for the rest of my days ahead. Thus my question: how do I do that?
This pulvirized spirit I have (without even mentioning being sub3 in looks and sub0 in mind) rendered the prospect of tasting a drop of love an impossible one.
As the plant shriveling without water I shrivel and find myself in a state of never ending decay and collapse.
I am not sure how I can live knowing I will never feel a drop of love and warmth for the rest of my days ahead. Thus my question: how do I do that?
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