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No Waifu No Laifu
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- Aug 19, 2018
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Time to spill the beans, boys.
I think I've come down with a bad case of porn addiction to be honest. I kinda want to bring it up to my therapist but I've never been any good at talking about any sexual issues. My parents never even gave me the "birds and the bees" talk. In my family we've just pretended that sex, and sexuality, don't exist. And I guess I've inadvertently carried that tradition outside of my family.
Over the past couple of days I've done the fap almost everyday, sometimes twice in one night. I didn't do it this much even when I was a teenager. I've just been so depressed, angry and self-destructive that I don't care. It makes me feel a bit better, even if for just a moment. And to me that's worth it.
I do feel like it's having a negative effect on my health though. I have a constant headache, my eyes are burning, nose is runny, my brain feels foggy and I feel completely powerless and demotivated to do anything. And those are just the physical symptoms. It's also making me feel more suicidal, which then makes me want to go for a round two and that makes me feel better for a couple of minutes before feeling worse again.
It's vicious cycle.
I think I've come down with a bad case of porn addiction to be honest. I kinda want to bring it up to my therapist but I've never been any good at talking about any sexual issues. My parents never even gave me the "birds and the bees" talk. In my family we've just pretended that sex, and sexuality, don't exist. And I guess I've inadvertently carried that tradition outside of my family.
Over the past couple of days I've done the fap almost everyday, sometimes twice in one night. I didn't do it this much even when I was a teenager. I've just been so depressed, angry and self-destructive that I don't care. It makes me feel a bit better, even if for just a moment. And to me that's worth it.
I do feel like it's having a negative effect on my health though. I have a constant headache, my eyes are burning, nose is runny, my brain feels foggy and I feel completely powerless and demotivated to do anything. And those are just the physical symptoms. It's also making me feel more suicidal, which then makes me want to go for a round two and that makes me feel better for a couple of minutes before feeling worse again.
It's vicious cycle.