LDAR How often do you consider ending your life?

[Runt171]

A lot. I don't want to, but I look at myself and just want it all gone

Everytime Im reminded Of my shitty position in life I feel the same
I just wish I could allowed to live properly

I pretty much think About it a few times a day at this point
Recently I didnt think about it for a few weeks And It was alright for awhile but thats done now

 

[Runt171]

damn, brutal. why so early? my neet-times (I just study remotely) will end soon, and soon I'll have to get up early and drag my ass to work, getting treated differently because of my 5'4 and my facial deformities

I hope your story is all larp
Life is so unfair to some people man

 

[JuliusEvola]

a few times every day
it is my fantasy

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I hope your story is all larp
Life is so unfair to some people man

I swear it’s not, but I do understand your doubts. Hell I wish I were larping.

My face and head started to drastically change when I was between 12-13. I’m almost 28 now.

Not sure if you’ve read any/some of my previous posts but yeah the gist of it is, because I look so weird I get many negative reactions from people in many different ways. It’s tempting to post my face here, but of course I don’t wanna get doxxed. Even with sunglasses and any type of head, I still look strange and get stares, joked about by strangers etc. I’m sure most people think I have some heavy autism or some disability.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I hope your story is all larp
Life is so unfair to some people man

Btw, I was a beautiful toddler, and I don’t know how or why, some gene/hormone mutations happened, causing my skull to grow extremely weirdly. I have no facial bones in many places, my proportions are VERY off. I know it all sounds vague, I just look wrong, it’s hard to explain. My chin, jaw, orbital area, cheekbones, side profile, width of my face…. it feels kind of good venting, but also sad

 

[sota]

daily im just too pussy to do it

 

[My Name Jeff]

damn, brutal. why so early? my neet-times (I just study remotely) will end soon, and soon I'll have to get up early and drag my ass to work, getting treated differently because of my 5'4 and my facial deformities

basically where i live is far from any city centers. only decent job i could get is at one so my commute is 1 hour each way.

and no, since i live in canada i cannot afford to live on my own unless i was making 120k+ or have 2-3 indian roomates neither option is appealing to me.

so i have to live at my parents place.

 

[justuseless]

Never

 

[KillNiggers]

Sometimes. When I am NEET'ing not as much. If I have to wagecuck then every waking minute.

 

[DarkStar]

Kinda hard for me to really summarize tbh

I wish daily for some massive, world-ending catastrophe such as a nuclear war, asteroid, or massive earthquake which swallows thew surface whole.

I also used to at times, often if I was more stressed & anxious than usual, have thoughts of jumping in front of a bus or throwing myself from a tall building.

I'm sorry to hear this mango, I'd miss having one of the few decent black ethnonats to talk with.

 

[Visionary]

Everyday but only once every 1-2 months seriously

 

[Retraux]

Every single day of my life.

 

[Runt171]

Not sure if you’ve read any/some of my previous posts but yeah the gist of it is, because I look so weird I get many negative reactions from people in many different ways.

We talked awhile ago You probably dont remember now but I can still remember your story

Honestly Idk what you would gain from larping about this if you were but its genuinely so brutal Its hard to believe someone Ive spoken to somewhat has to live like that
Your probably one of the unluckiest people on the site

 

[Adolf Kitler]

Daily

 

[DutchCel01]

Too often.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

We talked awhile ago You probably dont remember now but I can still remember your story

Honestly Idk what you would gain from larping about this if you were but its genuinely so brutal Its hard to believe someone Ive spoken to somewhat has to live like that
Your probably one of the unluckiest people on the site

Oh right, now I remember, I thought your name sounds familiar. I don’t have anything to gain if I did that, i probably wouldn’t be here and not waste my time larping if I weren’t so ugly (and short). I’m just very off looking, it’s not like one side of my face is horribly deformed and the other isn’t. My whole head and face are wrong, uncanny.

Everyone can decide on their own if they believe me. Getting it off my chest helps me though.

I don’t wanna give myself a label, but yeah, I was unlucky in quite a few aspects. Without the unknown mutations (reasons why they happened is a mystery; like some people are born disabled, I turned very ugly early on). I’d likely be a 6 foot chadlite had this not happened. Sorry if I already told you this, I can’t remember.

 

[m3nt4Lbl0ck3d]

it's always in the back of mind and a card in my deck. at this point it's an intrusive thought that I have to just push in the back of mind as soon as it rears it's ugly head. it's almost a common place part of my life.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

24/7

 

[slavcel11]

never